i need to drink a big ole cup of suck it up

Because I am in a bad mood.
I am tired.
I don’t want to be here.
I don’t want to deal with/talk to clients.
Some guy who no-showed his appointment yesterday, just walked in wanting to be seen.
I am so close to just saying fuck it and going back to bed.
I want to crawl out of my skin.
Fake it til you make it. L-O-L
I am angry. I am sad. I am over it.

I keep losing and gaining the same three pounds.

I started off great last week on WW, but then our lives fell apart and it has been messy eating and drinking ever since. I’m trying to ease back into it. I was so motivated after Cleveland, but now everything feels very meh.

It’s date night tonight and I’m going to splurge so…🤷🏻‍♀️

But I was talking to a friend last night, and he was like: you get so upset about your weight, but you’re thinner than all of us, and I’ve seen the way you drink!

I had to laugh, because he’s right.

We did the walk again last night. It feels good to at least be moving again. And I ate fairly well. Oh and I didn’t have any alcohol.

Baby steps.

I have like 4 months to lose five to ten pounds. That’s very manageable.