It recently occurred to me that the upcoming holiday season is going to be way different. I’ve consulted my parenting plan, and it looks like I will have Jackson on Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve. So now I have to figure out what to do. I’m talking with my sister about doing something on both days. I want the holidays to be special for Jackson, and not just the two of us sitting alone at home. The only time I ever feel especially bummed about not having a close family is during the holidays. Plus, the holidays bring up a lot of bad memories from my childhood. I want to break that cycle now that I have my own child.
I was freaking out about the idea of not having Jackson all day on Christmas, but I guess it won’t be too bad, because I will have him Christmas morning, which will be awesome. This will be the first year that he will actually be excited about opening presents. I can’t wait. I’m going to go all out this year: a tree, stockings, Santa, all of it. Grant was never into having a Christmas tree, and the damn cat would have destroyed it anyway. For once, I’m actually looking forward to the holidays. After I drop him off at Grant’s place, I will just go see a movie or something. Maybe Robert will still be up for our annual Chinese dinner tradition.