I’m feeling strangely calm considering the day I’ve had.  I think this is shock…maybe. I don’t know.

I am in more pain than I expected. I took some drugs, but they aren’t helping much.  I’m going to suck it up and go out with Jax tonight anyway, because I need to see his cute face more than ever right now.

Thank you, Rosa, for being so amazing.  You are my best friend, and I will love you forever.

The results should be in tomorrow, so I will know for sure then, but given what I was told today I’m not too hopeful.

Still…I can beat this. The survival rate is good. I need to be here for my child, and I will do whatever it takes to make sure that happens.