The lymph nodes on the left side (cancer side) of my body, and above the collar bone, are swollen.  So now I’m convinced that I actually have Stage IV cancer and I’m going to die.  I don’t recall it being this way pre-surgery, so I’m hoping that it is simply a reaction to the stress the surgery has put on my body.  But what if it isn’t?  If this is cancer related, my chances of surviving just plummeted.

I have a week before I see my breast surgeon.  I’m hoping to learn the pathology results this week, however. Unfortunately, I’m back to expecting bad news. 

I need to get good with the fact that I may die from this.