I miss my kid. He should be here tonight, but it’s his dad’s birthday so he’s with him instead. I could really use one of his awesome hugs. 

I’m going to knock myself out with drugs tonight. I desperately need some real sleep. 

And I need to contact the weed guy. 

We finished picking out the options for the house. Now we just need to email the stuff to the sales lady so she can prepare the contract. We need to have it signed before January 10th. I’m super excited. Also nervous. Mostly I can’t believe it’s actually happening.

There will be two fireplaces. Ahh. 4th upgrade slate cabinets. A bar. Granite all the things. Wood floors as far as the eye can see. Glass paneled french doors. And trim, trim, and more trim. 

I’m sad that it’s almost time to take the Christmas tree down.

I threw away half a pie today because I seriously just need to stop.

I’m a terrible friend. I never answer the phone. I could be out right now hanging with a girlfriend (whom I very much miss), but meh.

People reach out to me and I suck at responding. 

I’m not going to debate most shit with you because I really just don’t give a fuck if you disagree with me. 

I read that it takes about five years to heal from a divorce. I feel like I’ve only just recently (like in the last year or so) started to really deal with some of my own emotions regarding my divorce. The year of my divorce I was also going through cancer treatment, so it was easy to dismiss it as not something I needed to worry about. 

I want to re-read some books from my childhood, particularly the Little House series. Unfortunately, they don’t seem to be available for download on Kindle. I received a $50 Amazon gift card for Christmas, so I’m considering buying the set. 

I dislike this last week of the year. It feels very “hurry up and wait” to me. 

I’m going to jump on the treadmill and watch HGTV reruns. 

I want to do a blog challenge in January. I’m having a hard time choosing. Any recommendations?