the waiting drove me mad

I’m still in a bit of a funk. I’m better than yesterday though. And I at least have an idea of what the issues are:

  1. My house doesn’t feel like home anymore.
  2. Everything feels unsettled and it will for a while.
  3. At the office: same shit, different day.
  4. I’m tired. Always tired. Emotionally. Physically.
  5. My self-esteem is almost non-existent.

I just want to be left alone.

In other news:

  • Couch to 5k is going well.
  • I’m re-starting personal training sessions this week.
  • Fun plans tonight and Thursday night.
  • I’m very seriously considering getting “galaxy hair” next week!!

My birthday is in 10 days. I’m super grateful to still be here to experience another year. However, it’s a bit of a mind fuck that I’m going to be 37 years old. Where did the time go? Who is this old lady looking back at me when I look at the mirror.

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