I’m intoxicated, and feeling more relaxed than I have in some time. Maybe this will improve my expression here.
I feel super overwhelmed, but not unhappy about it. I have moments of extreme frustration, where I go down a rage filled rabbit hole, but I’m mostly okay. I’m anxious as fuck for sure, but I’m the sort of person who thrives under pressure. I feel alive right now.
But I mostly just feel really fucking tired.
I told D tonight that my new house goal is to have a private dressing room built when we finish the basement. It will display all my clothing and accessories. There will be a large vanity, and multiple floor length mirrors, as well as a love seat. Ahhhhhh!!!
Tonight, the husband and I brainstormed some ideas regarding my (career) future and it was very exciting.
Some weird, old, gross guy told me I was hot today, and I remember thinking: is this my life now? Getting hit on by old men?
But then I remembered the story my step-daughter recently told, about how just a year or so ago one of her friends saw me and said, “I thought you didn’t have a sister?” WINNING.
I went on a bit of a shopping spree today. What I posted earlier, plus a couple of other things. Oops.
I’m glad to have my husband back from “dude game weekend.” I’m jealous. Idgaf.
I’m disappointed with so many people right now. I go out of my way to help a lot of people, and I never get any thanks for it. I know I shouldn’t do it for the gratitude, and I really don’t (because this lack of thanks is not a new development), but a simple thank you goes a long way. So here’s your reminder to express your gratitude.
That reminds me…I texted my office manager this morning and told her how much I appreciate her. I’d be fucking lost without her. LOST. She’s struggling right now, too. Tax refund season is a bitch.
Also, I received a very nice compliment from a new client this week and it meant a lot. It significantly improved my day.
Btw I’m five pounds away from my new goal weight. That feels very doable. Especially considering how many meals I’ve had to skip recently. Now if I could just find the time (and energy) to exercise.
I hope all is well in your world.