you know what sucks?

Having to manage all of these fucking medical issues that have conflicting needs.

My psoriatic arthritis has become more of a problem recently. For example, I woke up today around 3:30 am because my hands and wrists were hurting like crazy. My current meds just aren’t working as well as I’d like, but the meds that do work have a cancer risk, so I haven’t been able to take them since my diagnosis.

I had my ovaries removed to reduce the risk of my cancer returning, which puts me at risk for osteoporosis. I need to do high impact exercises to help protect my bones. Unfortunately, doing high impact exercise is bad for my already fucked up joints.

I just feel like I can’t fucking win. I’m constantly having to make a difficult choice when it comes to my health/my body.