thoughts and feelings

  • I don’t even know where to start.
  • Freya seemed a lot better yesterday. She had really good, productive conversations with both of her parents. I think we’re all feeling a lot better about things. I don’t think she’s quite ready to leave yet, but that’s ultimately the doctor’s decision. If he doesn’t release her today, then she’ll be there all weekend. We’re waiting to hear.
  • I’ve been talking to a friend who is a therapist and she has suggested someone that D and I can talk to about everything. I think we need some guidance.
  • We’ve had so many friends reaching out to offer love and support. ❤️
  • Last night, after visiting hours, we invited Freya’s mom (K) to come out with us for dinner and drinks. I was surprised, but happy, when she accepted. We spent a couple of hours eating, drinking, and chatting. It was a bit awkward at first, but the alcohol helped, and eventually it felt less weird. I think it was a big step in the right direction toward clearing the air and rebuilding/repairing relationships. Or at least I hope. ❤️
  • I know it would have made Freya happy to see it. She’s told me several times that her mom and I should be friends.
  • Yesterday was a warm (though quite windy) day and my joints felt amazing. Today is cold again and I’m back to being swollen. I can’t believe I’m about to say this, but: can it please be summer?
  • I’m missing the big bankruptcy cle today. I just wasn’t feeling it. I’d have to leave early anyway to get Jackson. Plus, I have a ridiculous amount of work to do. I brought home like 12 cases to work on this weekend. So the plan is to drag my ass out of bed and start conquering that pile of cases. At some point anyway.
  • Five more minutes please.

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