little reminders

Recently, I’ve been listening almost exclusively to those playlists Spotify makes based upon your history, and this song has come up several times. I love, love, love this song, and I kind of hate that it now reminds me of my ex-husband and our divorce.

Back story:

Drive-By Truckers was one of the bands we discovered, and loved, together. We saw them like three or four times in concert. Jason Isbell was/is our favorite. All of his songs are beautiful, though poignant as fuck. The lyrics fuck me up. This song was always our favorite of them.

After our divorce, my ex got lyrics from this song tattooed on his arm, and now I can’t hear this song without thinking of that.

The tattoo is a beach at night with these lyrics:

“Well I ain’t really drowning ’cause I see the beach from here.”

Which was always my favorite lyric, because fuck if I haven’t felt that way so often in my own life. It’s hard sometimes, knowing that I made someone else feel that way as well.

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