I’m trying to fake it til I make it, but I’m just not having a good day today. I’m stuck in my head, thinking bleak thoughts, and have a big lump in my chest. I’m exhausted, but cannot sleep. I may have to take a Xanax to make it through the day without an epic breakdown.

I’m tell myself it’s okay to have a bad day. I’ve been doing so well under the circumstances. But this is just too much. It’s all too much. It’s a nightmare and I can’t wake up.