I just took my fifth dose of benadryl.

I’m clearly experiencing a delayed allergic reaction to Zometa, and let me tell you how fun that has been. I have big, painful hives all over my face. I look like a fucking troll.

The bone pain has me hobbling around like an old woman. I literally groan whenever I move.

I hate myself. D told me I have to stop being so hard on myself, and to allow myself time to cope and recover. I know he’s right, but I don’t really know how to not be hard on myself. I’ve been doing it my entire life. I have tons of compassion for everyone except me.

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