Maybe if I just go ahead and take a week off, I’ll stop feeling like I want to flush my entire career down the toilet?
It’s complicated though, because every penny counts right now, and if I’m not doing consultations then I’m not making money. We’re barely keeping the doors open as is.
I only actually care because of my staff. I worry about them. But, on the other hand, we won’t be able to do this forever. At some point, I’ll be too sick to continue. Is it better to let them go so they can move on?
But what if I’m lucky and live for ten more years?
Ugh it’s too much. Everything feels like too fucking much, and I’m TIRED.