misc.

I’m having a difficult time writing again. Everything either feels too boring to write about or too personal. I didn’t use to shy away from oversharing, but I’ve grown more withdrawn in my old age. Is this what it’s like to be in your 40s?

I guess I’m going to force myself to write and we will just see where it goes.

I’ve been very preoccupied with the presidential election, just like everyone. It is extremely disheartening how close it is. I’m not really surprised, I guess, but I am disgusted. Half of Americans support Donald Trump. It’s repulsive. What’s even worse is that a good number of those people aren’t willing to admit it publicly. We call them Secret Trumpers. How sad and gross to vote for someone you are too ashamed to admit you support.

I have a date tonight. It is the rescheduled date from last week. I haven’t given it much thought, but now that it is rapidly approaching, I’m starting to feel a bit nervous. What are we going to talk about? What is going to happen? I was better prepared last week, because D was also going to be out. Now it just feels strange. I am going to try to not have any expectations, and just enjoy it for what it is: a new experience. Which was always the point anyway – to try something new.

Plus, it’s not like I don’t know him. I do know him. I’ve just never gone out alone with him before.

I feel like a total slacker. I remain completely unmotivated workwise. It’s hard to feel otherwise given this weird limbo I find myself in. It sounds like the merger of firms is a go. We have some loose ends to tie up. We are meeting this weekend to discuss in more detail. In the meantime, I am doing the bare minimum to get by. It seems pointless to do much more.

I’m very tired this week, like more so than usual. I have been sleeping a lot, but it is never enough.

Also – my allergies are trying to kill me.

That’s all I feel like sharing right now.

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  1. I feel you over the whole “50% of everybody are monsters” thing – over here, at our last general election, I found myself in the 25% that didn’t agree with voting for the right wing, wealthy, capitalist, elitist option. I kept my mouth shut about it. The funny thing? The amount of complaining I now see online about the government over here that 75% of the people complaining voted for.

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