A little update?
Last night, D and I went to bingo night at our bar. It was a lot of fun. I love bingo! I’m such an old lady.
Onto today: I had lunch with Jen. We had a really good chat. I appreciate her so much. Plus, I got to go to Chevy’s, which I love.
Then I had to go to Siteman to pee in a cup. It’s always something!! After that, I did some shopping at Ulta and TJ Maxx. Next up: my bestie will be picking me up for our dinner date. Fondue, baby!
My phone has been blowing up with texts and emails. I’m feeling very loved and supported. It’s a bit overwhelming, but in a good way. I feel bad though, because I haven’t been able to respond to everyone yet.
My mom wants to see me and talk to me, which I understand, but I’m just not ready yet. She doesn’t get what a drain that will be on me. There’s just so much baggage to carry when it comes to that relationship, and I’m too exhausted to do it right now.
I know – I’m a terrible daughter, but she hasn’t been a good mother. It’s not like I’m just being an asshole. She made this bed, and now she has to lie in it. I’m not saying I won’t talk to her, but I need a fucking minute to process my shit before I go taking on her’s.
I’m tired of carrying other people’s mental health on my shoulders.
It’s my turn to be selfish.
In other news:
- I’m going into the office tomorrow for the first time in at least a month. I’m having lunch with DG.
- I have an estate planning appointment tomorrow evening.
- I need to get this house cleaned up for D’s birthday party this weekend. I’m very excited to see our friends.
- D and I have dinner reservations at Ruth’s Chris on Friday night!
I had to take an Oxy so I’m feeling high af. Good thing Annie is driving tonight.