I think I need/want a permanent something to represent how much I’ve changed, but I don’t know what it would be. Not a tattoo but a similar emotional concept. A token. Something I can wear/touch/see. Hmm.
There is definitely a personal transformation occurring. I want to like who I am on the other side. I want to like who I am right now – during it. I just want to like myself again. I’m so over feeling tired, angry, and sad. I want to feel joy again. I want to let go.