I can’t get in to see the ortho until March. Not surprised at all. I laughed when she told me.
D is sad today. Poor guy. This life is hard. So fucking hard. You have no idea.
Today feels like autumn and I am here for it. It’s glorious and has revived my spirit a bit.
I’m hoping to feel up to a walk tonight.
Laxatives are my new besties.
Speaking of besties – i really need to make plans to see mine. I miss (certain) friends.
On the other hand, I’m fine with just fading into the background of certain people’s lives. It’s already happening. It’s easier that way.
I feel so stressed by the tiniest things nowadays. Like paying my bills. Or calling about my disability case. The idea of taking that on feels completely overwhelming for some reason.
I got a hateful email from an old client this morning. As I read it, I was struck by how little I care. There was a time when it would have ruined my entire day. Now? Big meh. Oh are you unhappy??? Lol. Lol. Lol.
I look pretty fucking dreadful today. I guess I’ll try to look cute tomorrow afternoon when we visit the estate planning attorney. It’s def time to get all of that shit wrapped up.
I just say things here now because I’m alone and I don’t know what else to do.