I’m both miserable and lonely.

Today has been trying on the side effects front. The two biggest issues are ridiculously painful bloating, and a huge hemorrhoid that may be the death of me. It hurts like I can’t even describe. White hot pain. TMI TUESDAY! lol

Seriously though, I’m def asking for a dose reduction next cycle. If for no other reason than it will be the cycle before the Mediterranean trip, and I need to maximize my chances of feeling as good as possible. I was offered a dose reduction this last time, but decided to suck it up. I want NED, baby! (no evidence of disease for you newbs – the holy grail). Apparently, there are two lower doses that are available. I will say that, even with today being an epic suck, this cycle has been more tolerable so far.

I finished another book today. It was a slog and I’m glad it’s over. One of my favorite authors released a new novel today, however, and I’m quite excited to get started. The plan is to start that tonight.

There isn’t much to report. I’m just writing because I’m lonely. The family is having dinner, but I’m not feeling well enough to join them tonight. But I keep reminding myself that I’ll be feeling a lot better in just a couple of days most likely. And the almost two weeks of feeling good is definitely worth how I feel right now.

Oh…I received two messages today from readers that made me smile, and I just want to say thank you again to those who reach out. It’s nice to feel like my words matter. I feel so insignificant most of the time anymore.

xoxo