I’ve talked to a lot of doctors today.
The plan is that I’ll have surgery on Monday to get a stent placed in my duodenum, which will hopefully work to get past the obstruction. If so, that should buy me some more time and some much needed quality of life.
The issue is that there is a lot of cancer in that area and the doctors are “quite concerned.” Here’s hoping for a miracle.
When Kurt Vonnegut asked his son Mark what life was all about he said “we are here to help each other get through this thing, whatever it is”. It was on the radio last night, in honour of the fact that KV would have been 100 yesterday. I liked it and thought I’d send it along to you, in case you haven’t heard it. Another thing KV said in the clip was (preface in case you aren’t much into KV is that he was a Humanist) “… the only proof he ever needed of the existence of God was music”. What does that have to do with you? I don’t know. I just think there is some magic in this world, that is unexplainable, and music is one example. Maybe you will give and receive some magic in this liminal space. I am praying that everything goes perfectly for the surgery and you get stabilized soon. I guess this obstruction has been what’s been causing you grief for some time. You did a cruise and all that walking. Knowing now what you were pushing through takes it to another level of badass. I’m grateful that this obstruction was discovered and that you’ll be having surgery to relieve it. On another note, I am a bit of a luddite and I’m sure you know more about what’s out there than me to listen to, but I find the smartless podcast pretty funny when they have good guests. And David Sedaris really got me nice and distracted from bad times, but I imagine you’ve read everything by him. Wishing you luck and good vibes from Vancouver XO