I feel like I’m just waiting to die, and that’s no way to live. I don’t know how to fix it. I’m unwell and unhappy. I want to find joy in my every day life, but that has gotten really difficult.

I find myself being mean and lashing out, because I’m miserable and in constant pain. That’s shitty and unfair.

So I’m going to try to fix my shitty attitude. I don’t know how, but I’m going to try.

This week, especially next weekend, will be very eventful, so that should help. I just want to feel normal, ya know?