It’s Thursday, and I’m still alive. Lol.
Chemo is really kicking my ass this week. I’ve been sleeping a lot. All the Xanax is contributing to that too, but I need something to take the edge off. I’m sick of constantly worrying about dying.
Now that my Friends binge is finished, I’ve turned to this:
I just read that “Are You There, God? It’s Me, Margaret,” has been adapted into a movie to be released at the end of April. I hope I’m around to see it. It’s one of my all time favorite books. I’ve read it so many times that my copy is falling apart.
I have friends trying to visit with me, and I appreciate them so much, but I just can’t right now. I’m too sick and overwhelmed to commit to much more than an hour or two right now, and even that feels like a lot. Plus, I don’t feel like digging into everything. I know I should fight the urge to isolate, but I very much just want to be a hermit right now.
Yesterday was really difficult. It just… I can’t right now.
I’m so grateful I found your blog and that you’re sharing your story. Reading what you’ve been experiencing has been heart wrenching but I so appreciate your authenticity and condor around this horrendous disease. While I’m finding everyone‘s MBC experience is very different, I’m still learning a lot and what to prepare for.
On an a side note, I’m a massive “Friends” fan. I could not put down Matthew Perry’s book. I read mostly memoir’s and his is definitely one of my favourite.
I’m so glad you’re finding the blog helpful on your journey. That makes me so happy. ❤️ I’m sorry that you find yourself in this shitty club, but feel free to reach out if you need/want to talk.