It has been a weird couple of days.

Grant brought Jackson over on Monday, and came inside (for the first time ever). He sat next to me and we discussed the estate plan and financial planning in place for Jackson. I hope I was able to relieve some of his fears. At the end, he hugged me, and said, “I’ve loved you since I was 18 years old” and we just held each other and cried. It’s was heartbreaking.

Jackson has spent the last few days with Grant, but will be home for the weekend starting tomorrow. I’m hopeful we will have some good moments this weekend. I want to to talk and laugh and cuddle.

My nurse came out today. Her name is Dawn. I’m not sure if I love her yet, but she def seems proficient, which is what matters, and my pain level is her top concern. She comes back out on Thursday.

We tweaked the pain meds a bit and adjusted the hierarchy. I feel like I understand better how I’m supposed to be using the drugs to the best abilities. Now I just have to fight the fucking constipation.

This afternoon, Jen popped by for a quick visit. I can only manage about an hour before I’m done, especially given all the drugs. I need to get a few more people on the list. It’s nice to have these visits to look forward to. it was so good to hug her and to catch up. I gave her my favorite peacock brooch. She feels likes a beautiful peacock to me.

I think my appetite was slightly better today.

We finished Eastbound And Down.

That all for now. xo