I love the way they love each other. ❤️❤️
Went to bed around 11:30-ish. Awake again by 3. I’m exhausted, yet completely wired. Racing thoughts. Anxiety. I haven’t been this stressed in a long time.
I took a melatonin a little while ago, and even so…my brain refuses to cooperate.
I need to sleep. I need the break from reality.
D keeps referring to it as my hostile takeover, which makes me giggle. I think he’s proud of me.
But this time with a bourbon glaze. These were delicious. Recipe here.
More pics from tonight:
It was like a mini Thanksgiving, and we certainly have a lot to be thankful for. ❤️
It’s 9:17 pm right now. I’ve been awake since 4 am. I saw the sun rise on my way to the office.
I went hard core into the day, ready to get my new law firm going. I operated frantically, and non-stop, for about five hours, when I got an email from my former business partner:
THE LAW FIRM IS MINE.
I don’t have to start over from (almost) scratch.
That was part of a much larger email. Part of which included an apology for the shitty, manipulative texts he sent me yesterday; and then another part that said:
The girls were planning to quit when they thought he was taking full ownership of the firm. They aren’t looking for new jobs anymore. 😊
Obviously I accepted this offer. This is what I’ve wanted for years: to have full ownership of this law firm; not to start a new solo practice. I was prepared to do so, and even organized a new LLC last night, but this is my literal dream come true. I am stunned still…almost twelve hours later.
It’s a motherfucking game changer.
Everything is chaos. I’m ridiculously stressed/overwhelmed. I’m scared out of my mind. I’m already way behind, like I need to work all weekend to even begin to catch up, and I’m in a shitty market, at a compete disadvantage. But… BUT I’M SO FUCKING PUMPED.
This is everything.
^^Look at this bad ass boss bitch right here.
Note to self: you’ve got this, babe. Take no shit.
These were a fucking delight.
I’m grateful that he’s being such a fucking prick, because it just makes this easier.
Now I’m just pissed, bro.
I’m ready to go to war tomorrow.
For a long list of reasons that I cannot get into here, I am holding onto my cases, and fighting for what’s mine. I just created a new business entity, which will get to work first thing tomorrow.
THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO. SO. FUCKING. MUCH.
I am stressed beyond any other stress ever, and I feel like I’m going to stroke out at any moment.
I am so fucking grateful for my amazing support group. My husband, my friends, the lawyers (who are also friends, but deserve their own mention because they have stepped up in a BIG way the last couple of days, like one even called in a favor from another attorney on my behalf).
I feel very loved. Well with the exception of he who shall remain nameless. He hates my fucking guts right now, and has been gaslighting me all fucking afternoon.
I will be the bigger person. I will not engage. What’s the point? I’ve let him drag me down for too long already.
I don’t know what is going to happen. I am scared shitless. I might still fail…fall flat on my face. But at least I will stand up on my own first, and see what I’m made of. I should have done this years ago, and I feel like such an idiot for allowing this nonsense to go on as long as it did.
EVERYTHING IS CHAOS.