It’s been a while…

Since I’ve posted a selfie. So here’s one I sent my husband earlier today as part of our mid-day selfie exchange.

the situation

When someone tells you they have questions, and you’re like okay ask them. But then they just keep making declarations, and finally you’re like: OKAY BUT WHAT IS YOUR ACTUAL QUESTION THO???!!!!

Related to above –

They ask a question. You begin to answer that question. They don’t listen to that answer, but instead ask a completely different question WHILE YOU’RE STILL TALKING.

And finally –

They say something nonsensical, and you say, “I don’t understand what you are asking.” They snort and look at you like you are a fucking moron. Then say the same nonsensical thing again.

Welcome to my afternoon.

I spent the lunch hour sitting outside on the wrap around porch. It is gorgeous out today – lots of bumblebees and butterflies flitting around the honeysuckle bush, which smells absolutely amazing btw. It greatly improved my mood.

I feel like crawling out of my skin.

truthy things

I’m in a mood today. I am not fit to people. I am busy af today too, so this should be fun.
I’m not feeling like a good mom recently. Or even a good wife really. Or a good attorney. I just feel like I suck all around.
If people cared even half as much about other humans as they do about Notre Dame burning, then maybe our world wouldn’t be such a dumpster fire. I mean…I get it, I really do, but still.
Freya and I started season 2 of Sabrina last night, but I may have to finish it on my own. She has two tv watching modes: (1) She hasn’t seen it, and asks me questions throughout the entire show about what is happening or what I think is going to happen, or (2) She has already seen the show and spoils every single plot point – in detail – to the point where I don’t even need to watch it. She binge watched season 2 with her mom, so we are dealing with mode 2 right now. Lol.
Speaking of Frey, she recently told me about a friend coming out to her while they were at camp, and that the girl is very scared that her family is going to disown her. I can’t even believe we are still dealing with such nonsense in 2019, and it makes me very sad.
I feel like a fucking trash demon, and I know I need to do an entire lifestyle overhaul. I’ve gotta dig deep and get it done. I can’t live with myself like this anymore. I know part of it is me being fucking crazy, but that just is what it is, and I’ve got to change the shit I can actually control.
I haven’t smoked weed in over a week, and I haven’t even really missed it, so see…not addicted.
My break from booze is going to be a much more difficult thing. Sigh. But I need to drop at least 5 lbs asap – for my mental health. I guess I shouldn’t call it a break. It’s more of a cut back. I need to drink way, way less. For a variety of reasons.