I have that now!

So I’m using some today. I woke up and just really needed a me day. So I’m now relaxing in my office bed, which feels like a luxurious marshmallow, having just taken a big hit from the bong. I have my books. I have cute boys in my phone. I have my water (with lemonade Ultima). Let’s do this!!



Insomnia strikes again


– Today is my first official weigh in for the CR custom program. We submit our weight every Friday morning for accountability. I don’t have my macros and stuff yet, but I’m still excited to participate. I’ve been watching the training videos. I’m going to get Lose It Premium and start practicing tracking.

– Last night, M made a super delicious keto friendly Pad Thai with spaghetti squash. He sent me home with leftovers for lunch today. ♥️

– I’m in a shoppy mood. I’ve been looking at the Pottery Barn website for the last hour.

– It’s 5:28 am on a Friday, and I’m awake. I see a nap in my future.

– The book I’m currently reading is so boring. Such a disappointment. It’s dragging. I need to buckle down this weekend and get it done. I feel like a loser for not having read more so far this year.

– I’m wondering if I’m being naive about something/someone. I hear a lot of shit/drama, but I always like to make my decisions based upon my own experiences. Just because you had a bad experience with someone doesn’t mean I will. That doesn’t mean it’s not in the back of my mind though.

– Related: I’ve had some issues recently with people not being as genuine as they had seemed. After I was warned by someone I trust. It just has me second guessing some shit. This all came to me last night while I was high, so I’m trying not to take it/myself too seriously.

– I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed recently. Yesterday I just kind of shut down for a while. I need some time to myself. I crave some quiet solitude.

– my emotions are kind of all over the place. Hot and cold.

– I have some stuff I’ve been neglecting on my to-do list that I’m hoping to accomplish today. It would make me feel better – less anxious. I hate how overwhelmed I can get by simple adulting nowadays. I’m just always so tired, and it zaps my motivation. These meds kick my ass more than I let on. I try to put a good face on it, but the truth is I’m just not as capable as I used to be.

– This post may seem like vagueblogging, but I know what it means, and that’s all that matters.

– Me before you.


I have a date with a very sexy lady next week.

I definitely do not have time to start dating someone else, BUT I have been looking for a lady to date for some time now, and it seems that we are looking for the same sort of relationship. Also, she is really pretty and seems smart – that isn’t easy to come by. Oh and she reached out to me, which just makes it even better.


And if it doesn’t work out – then no biggie. At this point, it will be fun just to have the experience.

all the feels

I spent most of the morning crying. Tears of joy. Tears of relief. I let out all the emotions I’ve been holding in over the last four years. Now I have an emotional hangover. I ended up taking a long nap this afternoon. That helped.

President Biden. Vice President Harris. Oh excuse me, I mean Madam Vice President. Sounds amazing.

I was supposed to have court tonight, but it was rescheduled. So instead I’m sitting by the fire, enjoying some alone time.

My Zoom date last night was amazing. We had a special playlist, and special drinks – all in the dive bar theme. The mystery was Death At The Dive Bar. It was really cool; very detailed. It was a lot of fun, and the company was amazing. I think Tuesday night Zoom dates are going to be a thing until we can finally meet up in person. I think we are going to do the Blair Witch Hunt-A-Killer series next. !!!

Tonight, the husband and I will be drinking the fancy tequila and toasting the new administration. Ahhh – it feels so good to write that. We have a lot of healing to do as a nation, but I truly feel like we are in capable hands. Not just capable – but also loving, caring, and sincere.