a little bit of this/a little bit of that

  • Season 3 of Ozark was fucking incredible. That last scene…speechless.
  • I watched the trailer for Tiger King, and I’m just not feeling it, dog.
  • Honestly, I’m fucking tired of watching tv.
  • I found a mini cadbury creme egg in my bedside table, and it was very exciting.
  • My Chewy.com subscription for cat litter is way delayed, so I had to make a quick trip into Target. It is the first time I’ve been inside a Target in over a month. I almost cried. I wanted to stay and walk around and touch all the things, but I didn’t. I grabbed my shit and got the fuck outta there in record time. Oh Target…I miss you so.
  • I recently started using a new skincare line, and I’m really digging it so far. It’s Elizabeth Arden. I’m using the Vitamin C Ceramide Capsules (morning) and the Retinol Ceramide Capsules (evening). They have fantastic reviews, and I can see why. I’m thinking I’m going to check out the moisturizers next.
  • Just found out today that DMB radio is coming back to SiriusXM starting TOMORROW. Yay.
  • I’m still hoping that the summer tour will be a go, though I have a bad feeling about it. I refuse to give up hope.
  • It was so good to see Carrie today (via Skype) for lunch.
  • I have another Skype lunch date tomorrow (with Madison), and then a Skype wine date tomorrow night with Jen.
  • Saturday night we have another little Skype party planned. We’re going to play Truth or Drink with Chris, Jess, Jen, and Matt. Should be fun.
  • It’s almost midnight. I keep forgetting what day it is. Time has no meaning anymore.

patience has run thin (for everyone i think)

All of my interactions today with potential new clients were fairly terrible. I get that we are living in strange and stressful times right now, but yelling at me because you don’t like the bankruptcy laws is super unproductive; especially considering I DIDN’T FUCKING WRITE THEM. Talk to your representatives, bitch. Oh wait – I bet you didn’t even vote.

Bite me.

Oh and then there was the old lady who set up an appointment for this morning. So I called her and introduced myself, to which she responded, “How can I help you?” Bitch, how the fuck can I help you? I didn’t make this appointment. You did. I don’t need help. Then she bitched at me because she doesn’t like talking on the phone. Me either, ho. I’m so fucking sorry I can’t snap my fucking fingers and stop the fucking pandemic for you. How inconvenient.

Jesus fucking Christ almighty.

Day 16

I need to start drinking less. That’s my goal for tomorrow (technically today as it’s now 12:15 am – welcome to day 17). I’m just drinking out of boredom at this point. I’m gaining weight and I feel shitty about myself.

Good news: my running has improved a lot over the last few weeks. That makes me happy. I’m hoping to manage to wake up early enough to run in the morning before work.

I texted several of my girlfriends tonight to check in. Most of them aren’t doing very well. The isolation is getting to them. I’m setting up Skype dates and trying to be as supportive as possible.

I’m still mostly okay with being home. Just a tiny bit antsy. D and I manage to have fun no matter what we do as long as we’re together.

I’m really busy with work stuff. Kind of overwhelmed actually. Doesn’t seem like it’s going to ease up anytime soon given the hit the economy is currently taking.

I should try to sleep.

❤️❤️❤️

SOMETHING OF AN END

This had me in my feels on the drive home from the office today. (Otherwise, it was quite enjoyable to get out of the house for a few hours).

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When you came jumping down the stairs
Screaming bloody awful
You woke up God and everyone
Screaming bloody awful

So we took you to the doctor
He said yeah it’s a bad one
And it’s such a shame about it
‘Cause she’s so pretty

And then the earth started shaking
And yeah it was crazy
Heaven and hell came crashing down
And then the earth started shaking
Yeah it was crazy
Heaven and hell came crashing
They came crashing

It was beautiful and terrible
So beautiful and terrible

The phone call
You never expect
Did somebody get it yet
It’s a sound you never forget

Because the earth starts shaking
And yeah it’s crazy
Heaven and hell come crashing down
And then the earth starts shaking
Yeah it’s so crazy
Heaven and hell come crashing
They come crashing
They come cr-cr-crashing

It’s so beautiful and terrible
So beautiful and terrible

It was something of an end
Of a lovely and a wild thing
So beautiful in the morning
You’re beautiful
So beautiful
You’re beautiful in the morning

And I can’t seem to get it through your head
No matter what I do
I can’t seem to get it through your head
That I always love you

 

**If you have never listened to My Brightest Diamond you are missing out. Her sound is haunting and beautiful. I first discovered her back in the early 2000’s when she opened for The Decemberists at The Pageant.