on my soapbox

Ladies, if a man wants to be with you then he will be. No matter what he has going on, he will make you a priority. Believe his actions over his words, because that’s where the truth lies. You may love him, but you have to love yourself more.

**This message brought to you by the overwhelming amount of dudes doing shitty things to their girlfriends, which I keep hearing about. There’s just something about January that gets people acting all crazy — maybe it’s that whole re-evaluating your life feeling it inspires. Whatever it is, I’m hurting for some friends who have difficult decisions to make.

thursday thoughts

/// I feel quite awful today. I mentioned that earlier, but it is getting worse, and I’m worried I really do have a cold – or worse…the flu. Fuck I hope not. All I know is that I feel like I feel when I’m hungover and yet I haven’t had any booze since dinner on Tuesday night. So…

/// I’ve taken to keeping blog related notes in Google Keep because I can’t remember shit anymore. I always have all these ideas and then they slip away.

/// Cub Scouts ended up not being so bad. It was very hands on, and sort of fun: we used the various tools on the knife to carve soap, turn screws into a block of wood, open a can, etc. Oh and I seem to have made a mom friend. Jack’s friend Zach’s mom has been putting forth effort into hanging out with me at the various events, and she’s cool, so I guess I should maybe ask her to do something? Idk. I don’t know how this works. Haha.

/// On my way in today, I saw a woman driving a mini van that had a bumper sticker which read, “I used to be cool,” and I felt that shit in my bones.

/// The fog this morning was intense, and while it seems to have lifted, it is still a very blah-gray day. January is the fucking worst.

/// Both of my knees are swollen. Only slightly so, which is good, I guess, but it still sucks, and I have zero energy. Everything is super meh right now.

/// I’ve been listening to the album The Bends quite a bit since the beginning of the year. It just speaks to me right now. All of the songs are good, as is the flow.

/// On the way to school, Jackson was referencing Monty Python, and I know D would be proud.

/// I think I’m going to challenge myself to wear more of the clothes in my closet. I’m thinking about not allowing myself to wear certain outfits until I’ve cycled through others. Maybe something like: you can’t wear the same outfit twice for an entire month? I may start this in February or I may not do it at all. We shall see.

/// I think there is supposed to be another big snow storm this weekend. I’m kind of over snow right now, tbh, because it’s currently all dirty and gross. But I wouldn’t hate being snowed in with the family for the weekend. We have a lot of tv, movies, and games to keep us entertained. In fact, I believe we had originally planned to watch all three LOTR movies this weekend anyway. At the kids’ request. I never say no to LOTR.

/// I’m planning a tea party! I’m so excited about this. I have a Pinterest board dedicated to it. I was concerned that nobody would be interested in attending, so I put out feelers on Facebook, and now there are too many people who want to come! My husband made fun of me, but the plan is to be quite fancy and pretentious with our fancy dresses, hats, and gloves while we eat tiny cucumber sandwiches, maracons, and the like. SQUEE!!! I’m trying to decide on timing. Spring feels most appropriate. Maybe March?

Thursday morning

I slept poorly and then woke up with a headache. Booooooooo.

I have some stuff I want to post about, but first I have to drag my ass out of bed and do all the morning things: get showered and ready to go, drop Biz off at daycare, drop Jackson off at school, and get my ass to the federal courthouse. More later, babes. 💜