Merry Christmas 2022!

I made it. Woo.

Today has been quiet and chill so far. We opened presents and had breakfast. Then I took a nap. The plan is to play some games soon and eventually make dinner.

Heard the news that another good person lost their life to cancer. Pancreatic this time. Another good soul lost way too young. It’s awful and I hate it. It makes me sad, and it also makes me feel guilty for being lucky enough to still be here.

The family spoiled me this year. I got all the comfort items: fuzzy socks, slippers, a luxurious robe, a down comforter and 800 thread count sheets (with polka dots!). I spend most of my time in bed, so this was well played. Oh and D put a $300 Door Dash gift certificate in my stocking, so I’ll be feasting on burritos in the new year. Woot.

I’m a lucky lady. More later.


Carrie and I hit the road this morning to visit our old stomping grounds in Columbia. We had lunch at a favorite restaurant, and then visited campus, where I got my shop on at the school bookstore. I needed a new Mizzou Law tee since mine is filled with holes, and I’m happy to report I’m now the owner of a brand new one. I also picked up some swag for the kids since they both have talked about maybe going to Mizzou. It was great to be back there and remember all the things from such a fun and carefree time in my life.

We had so much to talk about and I feel like we talked non-stop all day. It was perfect and so very good for my soul.

I love you, lady!! Never forget it. ♥️

Hump Day

Yesterday was a good day. I felt pretty good, and I was able to participate in life fully and normally. I want more days like that.

Jackson’s choir concert was short and sweet. They did a good job. The song selection was extremely odd, but we all loved Thunder Lizard. Lol. You had to be there. But there were inflatable dinosaur costumes so…

And my ex and his gf sat with us! I kinda forced the issue, but still…progress. And we all walked out together too. It was good. I feel hopeful.

I really like his gf. She’s seems sweet, and she’s good to Jackson. I’m glad they both have her to lean on. G has told me recently about how he’s struggling with my prognosis, which totally makes sense. I’m glad he doesn’t have to do it alone. Especially the after part.

Today is Wednesday. I’m hoping to do a Weed Wednesday on Facebook later. It’s been a while. I’m supposed to have dinner with MVS tonight, and I really hope my body cooperates so we don’t have to reschedule yet again. I’m having some GI issues today that I’m trying to resolve.

Freya is sick…again. Another cold. I really hope I manage to avoid catching it. I have like no immune system right now because of chemo. I do not want to be sick over Christmas.

Oh Christmas…it’s sneaking up on me. I’ve been placing online orders like crazy. D is done. I think Jackson is done. I still need more stuff for Freya, but that requires a trip to some specialty shops. I need to get that done asap, but I have like no time until Monday, but then I have chemo on Monday. Gah!!

I still haven’t tackled the sentimental gifts. I’m trying not to stress. I can always give them after Christmas. It’s not that big of a deal.

I have a burrito on the way. I’ve been reading Bone White by Ronald Malfi, and it’s so good. Gonna go dig into that some more.



I was going to write a long, epic post about the trip, but I’m just too tired to go into details. What I will say is that the last two days have been incredible. Being with Annie fills my heart and soul with joy. She is an amazing person and friend. I’m thrilled we got to have this experience together. She ended up staying the night last night and we watched two movies: “Buffy The Vampire Slayer” and “Beaches.” There was laughter and tears and it was perfect.


2021 was an awful year and I’m not at all sad to see it go. Bitch, bye.

I always get excited for a new year, but I’m more excited than usual this time around. I feel like 2022 has a lot to offer me. I plan on saying yes to all the new experiences possible. I want to live; truly, unabashedly live.

I don’t have any real resolutions. I just plan to do what feels right. I know what that means for me right now, but I’m open to it changing, and I’m not going to set myself up for failure or berate myself. I’m seeking joy whenever and wherever I can.

It has to be this way. There’s no time to waste.