Project Christmas All The Things Has Commenced!

I’m really into how my dining room looks this year.

The kids and I did this together, and I had such a good time setting this up with them. I had to excuse myself for a minute when I started getting all teary-eyed. I love them so much and I’m thankful for these moments.

The decorating is a work in progress. It takes us several days to get everything set up. More pics later.

fuck it all

Jackson’s school district decided to approve in-person learning for K-8 beginning late October, but are still keeping a virtual option. They told parents about this a few weeks ago. I didn’t think anything of it, because we were originally told that virtual students could decide what to do for the second semester sometime mid-December. That was perfect, because it would allow us to see what happened with Covid during the winter.

Well today I get an email saying that they have changed their minds; we will now be locked in for the entire school year, and we only have 24 hours to change our selection. Given Jackson’s less than stellar performance with virtual learning, we have decided to send him back to school. So as of 10/22, he will be going back. I am super conflicted about it, and seriously displeased with the way this was handled. I get that this is an administrative nightmare for the school district, but I was relying upon what they said, and now everything is turned upside down. I feel absolutely blindsided.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.

We had a teacher conference this afternoon, which cemented for me that sending him back is the right choice for him academically. He is not thriving. I have this nagging voice in the back of my head, however, telling me that I may have just fucked the health of the entire family. It’s like I told his dad though: there is no good choice here.

Fuck Covid.
Fuck Trump.
Fuck anti-maskers.
Fuck cancer.
And fuck 2020.

My kid doesn’t like school. It’s not just a virtual school thing. He just doesn’t enjoy school (outside of the social stuff). He doesn’t enjoy reading, writing, and learning new things. He’s a slacker, just like his dad. I just don’t know how to get through to him. I always loved school. I can’t relate to his bullshit. I’m really frustrated with him right now. It’s only day 4 and he’s already not doing the shit he needs to do. Sure, I can punish him and force him to do what he needs to do, but I’m annoyed that it’s even necessary. Do your shit, bro.

I could never, ever be a teacher. I have no patience and zero chill when it comes to bullshit. I’ve already made him cry today.


The teen starts school (virtual) on Monday. Luckily, she is pretty self-sufficient, and generally enjoys school, though last year we did have an issue with her not doing her work as well. I swear to god, I am going to fuck these kids up if they don’t get and keep their shit together. I do not have time for this bullshit. I will take away everything they own that brings them even a shred of joy. I am not playing around this year.