I drank too much last night, and I am really paying for it today. I feel awful. I have to remember that I cannot drink like I’m in my 30s anymore. Especially given the lack of carbs, the weight loss, and the alcohol content of what I drink nowadays (mostly tequila and wine – beer was so easy to drink and I miss it). Ugh, ugh, ugh.

But…my date with MP was wonderful. He’s so interesting and thoughtful. I had a very good time. It was definitely worth the wait.

When I got home, A was here, so I said hi to her and Dave, then ran to the bathroom to throw up. Keeping it really classy over here, peeps.

And then play that on repeat, unfortunately.

The silver lining? My weigh in was pretty amazing this morning! Ha. I made my 1% loss for the week. I came in at exactly 142. I’m going to squeal when I finally see 139 on my scale. Hopefully next week! I’ve lost a total of 12 pounds. 17 to go!

We were supposed to have Jackson with us this weekend, but his dad had to cancel his trip (he was going to Texas), so we are unexpectedly kid free. The plan tonight is the usual: steak night with my gingy babe. We have some catching up to do. We both have dates to discuss.
Tomorrow night we have reservations at our fave seafood spot, and then on Sunday we are making a weed run to Illinois. It’s about time I put my medical mj card to use.

Next week starts the new custody schedule – so we will have both kids on Mondays and Tuesdays now (and every other weekend). For a while it has been both kids on Monday, Frey on Tuesday, and Jackson on Wednesday. This will be a nice change. It’s more convenient for me, since I often have court on Wednesdays at 4 pm, which is when I’m supposed to get Jackson from school. Plus, I like the idea of having them for one long stretch at a time. When they are here, they are here.

I do miss him already though. My sweet boy.

It’s around 2 pm on Friday afternoon. I’m going to go ahead and call it a day. I feel like crawling into my (upstairs) bed and reading. MP gave me some books last night that I am very excited to dig into. First up: Lost Caves of St. Louis. I cannot wait until spring so we can get out and start exploring some stuff. My bed is extra cozy right now because M&J hooked me up with an amazing pink velvet comforter that I am obsessed with.

Okay – enough pointless rambling.


what happened to my little baby boy?

My kiddo ran into my office all excited earlier to let me know he has a girlfriend now. He has liked this girl for over a year, but was always too afraid to tell her. He recently mustered up the courage to email her about it, and she responded this morning saying she feels the same. He hugged me so tightly, and thanked me for encouraging him to put himself out there.

He’s the sweetest. I’m so happy for him.


I guess I need to make sure his dad has the (as my friend put it earlier) “so you have a dick…” conversation with him. Lol. I am very open with my kids about sexuality, but I don’t have a dick, so I feel like his dad and step-dad will have to step up to the plate for that conversation.

He will be in middle school next year. The time is flying by. And kids feel so much more grown up nowadays. *sigh*


I cashed out my 401k a week or so ago, because right now you can do so without the 10% penalty because of the CARES Act. I’m not going to be growing old, so I took all the monies out, every single penny, and it is now sitting in my bank account.

We are taking the kids to Hawaii for vacation in the spring. The plan is Oahu and Kauai. We’re talking first class travel, helicopter tour, snuba – all the things. They are so freaking excited about it, that I almost cry when they bring it up. I want to give them the best family vacation memory ever. I’m so pleased that I’m going to be able to do this for us/them.

Jackson keeps talking about how he’s going to video all the things and then make a compilation video of our entire trip. I think that is a brilliant idea.

They will never understand just how much I love them, but at least I can spoil them for a bit while I still can. I’m super thankful that D talked me into starting that 401k all those years ago. Thanks, babe.

Project Christmas All The Things Has Commenced!

I’m really into how my dining room looks this year.

The kids and I did this together, and I had such a good time setting this up with them. I had to excuse myself for a minute when I started getting all teary-eyed. I love them so much and I’m thankful for these moments.

The decorating is a work in progress. It takes us several days to get everything set up. More pics later.