ouch…go away please

The nerve pain from my bilateral mastectomy is flaring up today, so that’s fun.


The classic symptoms of PMPS are pain and tingling in the chest wall, armpit, and/or arm. Pain may also be felt in the shoulder or surgical scar. Other common complaints include: numbness, shooting or pricking pain, or unbearable itching

That pretty much sums it up.

I guess I should take some pain meds, though they honestly don’t do much with this type of pain…even the narcotics. I mostly just have to grin and bear it.


My morning in texts

At 7:15 am

To D:

Good morning, babe. I’m canceling my plans for tonight.

A group text to the girls:

In which I explain that my knees are fucked and I’m not up to going out tonight. Oh and further explaining that I don’t want to pick a new date until I’m on the new meds, because this is happening ALL THE FUCKING TIME NOW.

A separate text to just my bestie:

Apologizing personally. Sending her this pic as way of explanation, despite the fact that she doesn’t need it and loves me unconditionally:

Yep! That’s huge, right? Both are swollen, but the left one is crazy. It’s going up into my thigh. Ughhhhhh.

And a text to my business partner and office manager:

Telling them I’m coming in today, but cannot cover the court hearing at noon, and will probably need to leave early.


I sent another email to my doc last night requesting another round of prednisone while I wait on the meds. I’m hoping she’ll go for it. This is ridiculous.