ouch…go away please

The nerve pain from my bilateral mastectomy is flaring up today, so that’s fun.

Description:

The classic symptoms of PMPS are pain and tingling in the chest wall, armpit, and/or arm. Pain may also be felt in the shoulder or surgical scar. Other common complaints include: numbness, shooting or pricking pain, or unbearable itching

That pretty much sums it up.

I guess I should take some pain meds, though they honestly don’t do much with this type of pain…even the narcotics. I mostly just have to grin and bear it.

Sigh.

My morning in texts

At 7:15 am

To D:

Good morning, babe. I’m canceling my plans for tonight.

A group text to the girls:

In which I explain that my knees are fucked and I’m not up to going out tonight. Oh and further explaining that I don’t want to pick a new date until I’m on the new meds, because this is happening ALL THE FUCKING TIME NOW.

A separate text to just my bestie:

Apologizing personally. Sending her this pic as way of explanation, despite the fact that she doesn’t need it and loves me unconditionally:

Yep! That’s huge, right? Both are swollen, but the left one is crazy. It’s going up into my thigh. Ughhhhhh.

And a text to my business partner and office manager:

Telling them I’m coming in today, but cannot cover the court hearing at noon, and will probably need to leave early.

SIGH

I sent another email to my doc last night requesting another round of prednisone while I wait on the meds. I’m hoping she’ll go for it. This is ridiculous.