Week 2 is in the bag!

I made my running goal for the week.


Today I found an old running playlist, and decided to give it a listen:


Not pictured: the Country Heat workouts I’ve been doing at least once per week.

I’m enjoying this fitness regimen, and I’m really hoping my health doesn’t fuck it up. I feel good. I feel strong.

Challenge updates

The Sally Up/Down squat challenge is a bitch. I’m feeling that burn. Two days in the bag.

My (sped up) accountability video is below. We have to post a video or pic to the FB group every day.



This morning, I decided to weigh myself for the first time in months to prepare myself for official weigh in on Saturday. It was better than I thought. I’ve essentially maintained through the quarantine, which is a surprise. I’ve gained maybe one to two pounds.

But this number has gone up, and that’s the real issue:

It was at 19%. Gonna fix that.

I really need to make it a priority to get my office treadmill moved to the house. I have to call today and set that up. I want it here by next week. It’s way too hot and humid to be running outside.

Have I mentioned I hate summer? Lol.

This was a total shit show


Resulted in this:

I ran in two to three min bursts, but my heart rate was getting really high, and I felt like I might pass out, so then I’d walk for a few minutes. I feel like I’ve lost so much progress.


I hate summer.

I miss my treadmill.

You know what though? I’m going to do it again on Monday. Much earlier or much later though. Gotta beat the heat.

non-scale victory

I did the run, and even though it was the same run I fucking killed on Monday, this time was rough. I wanted to stop so badly, but I didn’t. I didn’t even slow down.

I’m proud of myself.

Friday’s run adds five minutes of running time. No more walk breaks either. Shit is getting real. πŸ˜†

Today is my Friday!

And now that my workday is over, I’m in weekend mode.

But let’s rewind –

I feel like I’ve been neglecting the blog a bit recently. That’s due to a combination of utter boredom and feeling shitty. I woke up feeling fairly good today, so I decided to take advantage. Hence the fancy attire earlier:

This morning when I woke up, I decided to take a “before” pic. Before what – I’m not entirely sure. I mostly just want to see if my body changes at all during the couch to 10k training.

Trying to reduce that mom tum a bit.

I ran today after my last appointment of the day, and it felt good. I’m hovering right around 5k, but slow and steady is definitely what I need right now. The app only wants me running three days per week, so I walk the other days (when my body allows it).

I read somewhere that 30 min of cardio, 5 days per week, can be as effective as chemo, and while I doubt that is true, I’ve taken it to heart.

I need new running shoes. See those holes? πŸ˜†

I participated in a town hall zoom meeting for STL Co courts this afternoon regarding the crim and traffic divisions, and what the new procedures are going to be moving forward. I kind of can’t believe this is reality. Life feels so strange. I will say that the silver lining of the virus for the legal profession will be that it is forcing the courts to finally embrace technology. We will be doing Zoom court appearances, and eliminating so much bureaucracy in the process.

I’m off tomorrow because I have treatment in the morning, and I know I’ll feel shitty afterward. My plan is to come home and lounge on the couch while I watch Netflix all day. I’m looking forward to it. I deserve a couch day.

In other news: my hair stylist reached out to me to say she would open the salon for me on a day where nobody else will be there so that I can get my hair cut. I love her so much, and am so grateful. I need to cut this hair so it will be easier to manage (and look better) while I adjust to these meds. I sure do hope the shedding will slow down soon. I’m really depressed about it.

I was feeling like I shouldn’t risk it, but D says we can’t completely neglect our mental health, and I agree. Plus, we will be wearing masks and sanitizing everything. I will ask the oncologist what he thinks when I see him tomorrow. It my white counts are decent, then I suspect he will says it’s okay.

Waiting on D to get back from his run so we can do our Thursday night thing.

Happy Friday Eve!

a bit of substance

Tonight, on my third walk of the day, D mentioned how we’ve only known about the cancer recurrence for (not quite) two months. It feels like just yesterday and also a lifetime all at once.

Speaking of walking, I’m doing a fuckton of it. I believe I mentioned that I’m in a step challenge? Well it’s keeping me super motivated. It helps that there isn’t much else to do, and that the exercise is good for my mental health. Here are the stats as of right now:

I’ve been in a big cleaning/organizing/purging sort of mood the last few days. I’m getting rid of so many clothes. Tonight, I cleaned out my second closet (shut up) and Freya took a bunch of my old dresses, like easily $2000 worth of clothes. So now she has a new wardrobe, and she’s very pleased. And now I can focus on purchasing new items. My look has been evolving recently, and I’m ready to branch out a bit.

I’m pretty sure I’m going to need to cut my hair much shorter once this quarantine is lifted and I can see my stylist again. I’m hoping this is just thinning and not actual baldness. Most women don’t lose all of their hair on Ibrance. I had this happen back in the day when I started tamoxifen, so I’m hoping that once I adjust, I’ll see some new growth. I’m trying not to be too upset about it, but it’s hard when I’ve already given up so much, ya know?

Maybe something like this:

Or this:

Here is a random pic of Bizzy being cute earlier…just because:

Oh right: Frey and I watched Drag Me To Hell tonight, and I forgot how much I like that one.

Tomorrow (really today now) I’m going to run first thing, and then get all fancied up – just because. Maybe do a little ootd photo shoot. I have a hearing tomorrow afternoon (on the phone) but I’m going to get dressed up like I’m going in person. Maybe I’ll even wear real shoes! πŸ˜‚

I’ll leave it at that for now. It’s 12:12 am. I’m not foolish enough to think I’ll be getting to sleep anytime soon, but I can at least try.

Gym life

I’m determined to make going to the gym not only a habit, but also one I enjoy.

Today was cardio (treadmill) plus some circuit training. Right now I’m enjoying a hydromassage, which helps the enjoyment factor.

I think I’m going to upgrade my membership so I can have unlimited classes and unlimited massage, plus access to the women’s only workout area.