*pats self on back*

Okay, I promise this isn’t turning into a fitness blog, BUT:

I’m so proud of myself this morning. I woke up at 6:40 am, got dressed, and went downstairs to exercise. This morning’s workout (Day 4) was Pilates inspired. It’s considered an active rest day, but it was still tough. My glutes were burning for real.

Getting up early ended up being kind of awesome. It set a nice tone for the rest of the day. I wasn’t rushing around to get ready. I had plenty of time. Despite the fact that I didn’t sleep well last night, I don’t feel overly tired. In fact, since I’ve started exercising regularly, I’ve noticed I have a lot more energy. I haven’t been napping! Are you shocked? I’m shocked. I think D is a bit shocked, too.

Anyway, I love it. I love this program. I love how I feel. I can’t wait to see my body change. Today my Shakeology should be delivered and I am pumped to get started.

I never thought I’d be the kind of person who gushed about an exercise program, but here I am.

desperately wanting

  • I want the big, fancy house with a private swimming pool, but I want it to be in the city. Is that too much to ask?
  • When I consider options for the next adventure trip, my top three places (now that Iceland has been checked off the list) are: New Zealand, Japan, and an Antarctic cruise.
  • Though there are still some places in the US I’d really like to see: like the Grand Canyon, Alaska, Maine, and NYC.
  • I want a big blue sapphire ring with a diamond halo. 
  • And a pair of Manolo’s. I’ll take these or these
  • I’ll also take an orange Siberian cat. 
  • And a trip to Paris.

That’s not asking much, right? 


I know some people hate New Years resolutions, but I love them.  Here is what I hope to accomplish in 2015:

  • Read 50 books. This should be easy. I surpassed that this year.
  • Be more active. I’m not putting any pressure on myself about a certain number of times per week I need to be exercising. (In fact, I plan on canceling my gym memberships.) I just want to run and walk more. Maybe ride my bike.  I don’t want it to feel like a chore. I’m over that. I’m never going to be that super fit chick. I’m never going to hit the gym every single day. That’s just not me.
  • Be more body positive.  Finishing up my reconstruction has helped a lot with this, but I still need to work at it. I am way too critical of myself, and it really brings me down.  That’s silly.  I am beautiful. Inside and out. It’s time to start acting like it. I’m going to own that in 2015. I’m done with being my own worst enemy. I’m 35 years old. I’m over it. I even told the bf that I want to be naked on the beach in Belize next year because fuck it that’s why. 
  • Strengthen relationships with friends and family. I’ve already started on this one, and it makes my heart happy. 
  • Travel. On the list so far: Iceland, Boston, Wisconsin, Chicago, Hawaii, and Belize. 
  • Try something new every month. It can be anything: a new food, restaurant, hairstyle, activity…you get the idea.
  • Be more present. Less social media. Less cell phone. Less work distractions. My people deserve more of my attention. 

I think these are reasonable. It’s not like I’m foolish enough to think I’m going to magically turn into some super fabulous version of myself or something. However, I do want to be constantly improving. Otherwise, what’s the point? 

2014 Book List

  1. Allegiant – Veronica Roth
  2. The Lonely Polygamist – Brady Udall
  3. Ghost Story – Peter Straub
  4. How To Be A Good Wife – Emma Chapman
  5. Me Before You – Jojo Moyes
  6. Eleanor & Park – Rainbow Rowell
  7. Lies You Wanted To Hear – James Whitfield Thornton
  8. Fangirl – Rainbow Rowell
  9. The Never List – Koethi Zan
  10. If I Stay – Gayle Forman
  11. Reconstructing Amelia – Kimberly McCreight
  12. Where’d You Go Bernadette? – Maria Semple
  13. The Waiting – Joe Hart
  14. House of Glass – Sophie Littlefield
  15. Attachments – Ranibow Rowell
  16. The Magpies – Mark Edwards
  17. Speak – Laurie Halse Anderson
  18. The Martian – Andy Weir
  19. Breast Left Unsaid – Jude Calligros
  20. The Winter People – Jennifer McMahon
  21. Promise Not to Tell – Jennifer McMahon
  22. You Should Have Known – Jean Hanff Korelitz
  23. Before I Go – Riley Weston
  24. The House Next Door – Anne Rivers Siddons
  25. Dark Lullaby – Mayra Calvani
  26. Still Missing – Chevy Stevens
  27. Heart Shaped Box – Joe HIll
  28. Lineage – Joe Hart
  29. What Alice Forgot – Liane Moriarty
  30. The Guilty One – Lisa Ballantyne
  31. Me, Earl, and The Dying Girl – Jesse Andrews
  32. The River is Dark – Joe Hart
  33. Before I Fall – Lauren Oliver
  34. Charm & Strange – Stephanie Kuehn
  35. Complicit – Stephanie Kuehn
  36. Everything I Never Told You – Celeste Ng
  37. The Silent Sister – Diane Chamberlain
  38. Landline – Rainbow Rowell
  39. Three Wishes – Liane Moriarty
  40. Help For The Haunted – John Searles
  41. The Girl You Left Behind – Jojo Moyes
  42. Falling Into Place – Amy Zhang
  43. Big Little Lies – Liane Moriarty
  44. Not That Kind Of Girl – Lena Dunham
  45. Fifty Shades of Grey – EL James
  46. Flatland – Edwin Abbott
  47. The Tender Bar – JR Moehringer
  48. One Plus One – Jojo Moyes
  49. On A Hill – Michael Whitehouse
  50. The Last Letter From Your Lover– Jojo Moyes
  51. After I Do – Taylor Reid
  52. Turn Of Mind – Alice LaPlante
  53. We Are All Completely Beside Ourselves – Karen Joy Fowler
  54. We Were Liars – E. Lockhart
  55. Conversion – Katherine Howe
  56. Contact – Carl Sagan

I haven’t yet decided what to read next, but I doubt I’ll finish it this year (though it’s possible). My goal was to read 36 books this year, so I’m quite pleased that I somehow managed to read 56. 

My top 10 of 2014:

(in no particular order)

  1. The Girl You Left Behind
  2. Landline
  3. Me Before You
  4. Not That Kind Of Girl
  5. Heart Shaped Box
  6. The Martian
  7. Eleanor & Park
  8. Attachments
  9. Fangirl
  10. One Plus One

Basically, Moyes and Rowell for the win. But read The Martian if you like science fiction, because it is amazing.