For Mother’s Day, I texted my mom. I also unblocked her on Facebook, though I’m not ready to be actual friends again. I looked at her profile and she’s got a pro-Trump photo frame so that’s fun.
For my own day, I’m just chilling. It feels nice to have nowhere to go and nothing to do. We did most of our celebrating yesterday, per my request, so I can just relax today. It’s glorious.
I got a fancy dinner out with the family. Jackson gave me a themed gift centered around things to do when I’m at the hospital and/or at home relaxing. Freya made me a card and wrote a sweet message that made me cry. She and I are thick as thieves nowadays. I have turned into her confidant. I’m trying my hardest to keep her on a good path. 14 is hard, bro.
Okay off I go to relax. I’m putting my phone away and disconnecting.
What an absolutely fabulous weekend. ♥️
We started celebrating last night with dinner and gift exchange.
I finally got to wear my new dress:
D bought me the most amazing necklace. I love, love, love it.
Instead of a card, I got a PowerPoint slide, and it may be the best thing he’s ever given me.
Dinner was amazing.
I even allowed myself to have dessert – a keto ice cream bar.
I have this fuschia dress covered in black hearts that I wore on Valentine’s Day last year. I put it on last night with the intention of wearing it on my date, but NOPE! It was too big. As much as I love that dress, that felt really fucking good!
Oh and I made my 1% loss this week. Woo!!
Speaking of date night, it was fabulous. We talked and talked and suddenly it was almost midnight. And there was SO MUCH TEQUILA. I’m hungover af – like seriously on the struggle bus – but no regrets.
TGIF. Looking forward to spending Vday weekend with my family. I hope D’s second present gets delivered soon. 😳
We rang in the new year with our besties.
I ♥️ them.
And we did a blind champagne tasting.
Woo – fucking finally.
Obviously, I recognize that nothing is going to change tomorrow, but I’ve always been that person who considers the new year to be a fresh start. I’m currently super motivated about some goals that I have.
I also enjoy reflecting on the prior year, and always find myself doing one of these year in review posts on NYE. I haven’t had a crazy ass year like this since 2012. In 2012, I was going through a messy divorce, and was diagnosed with breast cancer. I often refer to it as the worst and best year of my life, because it is also the year that D and I became a couple, and, despite everything, we had a lot of fun together. 2012 was a year of change.
I feel similarly about 2020. Lots of change this year, and not all of it has been bad. I received my MBC diagnosis in February, which obviously drastically changed our lives. We made a lot of plans that were then made moot in March when the pandemic started. While we had to put a lot of stuff on hold (like our travel plans), we started living our lives on fast forward. We began seizing opportunities for new adventures/experiences. MBC definitely resulted in D and I leveling up our relationship. Our communication game is on point. I feel closer to him than ever before. We’ve stopped planning for the distant future and started planning for right now. It has been a game changer in a lot of ways.
Another huge change was merging my firm. I felt stuck for so many years with the weight of the law firm resting upon my shoulders, and I had convinced myself there was no escape. Getting out of that situation felt impossibly difficult, and I felt like I was drowning every single day. I was pretty miserable; drinking too much to cope with the stress, lashing out at others because I felt trapped. I am so grateful to find myself where I am now. It’s like a giant boulder has been lifted off my shoulders. I am beyond pleased to no longer be the managing partner. I am so grateful to have a colleague who is so hard working and supportive. I am thankful to my husband for listening to years of my complaining and pushing me to make this happen. I couldn’t have done this without his support. I feel like I can breathe again.
I’m excited to see what adventures 2021 will bring. Every day is a gift – even the bad ones.
Happy new year!