happy last day of 2020!

Woo – fucking finally.

Obviously, I recognize that nothing is going to change tomorrow, but I’ve always been that person who considers the new year to be a fresh start. I’m currently super motivated about some goals that I have.

I also enjoy reflecting on the prior year, and always find myself doing one of these year in review posts on NYE. I haven’t had a crazy ass year like this since 2012. In 2012, I was going through a messy divorce, and was diagnosed with breast cancer. I often refer to it as the worst and best year of my life, because it is also the year that D and I became a couple, and, despite everything, we had a lot of fun together. 2012 was a year of change.

I feel similarly about 2020. Lots of change this year, and not all of it has been bad. I received my MBC diagnosis in February, which obviously drastically changed our lives. We made a lot of plans that were then made moot in March when the pandemic started. While we had to put a lot of stuff on hold (like our travel plans), we started living our lives on fast forward. We began seizing opportunities for new adventures/experiences. MBC definitely resulted in D and I leveling up our relationship. Our communication game is on point. I feel closer to him than ever before. We’ve stopped planning for the distant future and started planning for right now. It has been a game changer in a lot of ways.

Another huge change was merging my firm. I felt stuck for so many years with the weight of the law firm resting upon my shoulders, and I had convinced myself there was no escape. Getting out of that situation felt impossibly difficult, and I felt like I was drowning every single day. I was pretty miserable; drinking too much to cope with the stress, lashing out at others because I felt trapped. I am so grateful to find myself where I am now. It’s like a giant boulder has been lifted off my shoulders. I am beyond pleased to no longer be the managing partner. I am so grateful to have a colleague who is so hard working and supportive. I am thankful to my husband for listening to years of my complaining and pushing me to make this happen. I couldn’t have done this without his support. I feel like I can breathe again.

I’m excited to see what adventures 2021 will bring. Every day is a gift – even the bad ones.

Happy new year!