How have you changed so far in 2018?

2018 has been a difficult year for me, both health-wise and career-wise. But, as always, I have come out on the other side better for all of it. My motto for the year has been: what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

From a health perspective: I have eliminated my chance of cervical and ovarian cancer, as well as drastically reduced my risk of breast cancer recurrence. It was a hard road to recovery, but I’m here now, and while there are some shitty side effects, I don’t regret my decision to have the surgeries.

As for my career: 2018 has been the most litigious year yet. It has been stressful as fuck, but I continue to learn and grow as an attorney. I am a better attorney today than I was on 1/1/18. These experiences have emboldened me, and I have started taking more complicated cases as a result. I take more chances. I have more confidence in my abilities. I am grateful for that.

the situation

A combination of:

blow jobs
hand jobs
dry humping

It’s like being a virgin again.

At least I can get the husband off. I’m not allowed to even orgasm on my own. So frustrating.

We have a few more weeks of this nonsense to go.

My next follow-up appointment with the doc is 5/31. Fingers crossed that I’m given the all clear that day.

Me, lecturing myself for doubting myself:

If you have to have a bad month or two in order to potentially have a longer, healthier life then you need to stfu and deal. You’ve got this.

I need to do what I did after breast cancer, and use this as a launching pad to positive life changes.

I already have some in mind. The waiting is hard, but six weeks is really not so long.