2:47 am

Everyone else has been asleep forever at this point and I’m still wide awake. Just snuck out of bed for a quick puff. Hopefully that will help relax me. I’m kind of surprised that the exhaustion combined with the five miles I did today wasn’t enough on its own. My body hates me.

At least I can sleep late tomorrow if necessary. 🤷🏻‍♀️

12:04 am

I’m feeling all kinds of weird and worked up right now. I’m not sure why. I should be asleep by now, because I’m exhausted, and this bed is comfortable. My brain is stupid and I hate it. We had a good night tonight. My favorite part was the long walk with the kids and the dog. I love how they just tell me everything without reservation. Being their confidant may be my favorite thing. Gotta enjoy it while it lasts, but I do very much hope it lasts forever. If only. My heart kind of aches tonight for both good and sad reasons. You know how it is.

a weird feeling

When you notice that you have “liked” and even commented on various social media posts, but you have no recollection of doing so, because it likely occurred while you were fucked up on Benadryl and unable to get to sleep.

At least I didn’t say anything inappropriate. Ha.