A familiar scenario —
Lying here in pain. In the dark. Wondering how I’m going to get through the day.
I’m going to eventually break under the strain of all this. I can only fake it til I make it for so long. I’m tired. And sad. And angry.
Tag Archives: insomnia
It’s 3:47 am
I’m awake and I’m annoyed af about it.
I’ve been up for like an hour.
Whyyyyyyyy????
3:49 am
Insomnia. Party of one.
insomnia perks
I’m getting a lot of middle of the night reading in, so I think I have a good shot at actually meeting my reading goal for the year. I believe my current book is #93.
lawyer problems
Why am I awake and thinking about tenancy by the entirety at 2:24 am?
2:47 am
Everyone else has been asleep forever at this point and I’m still wide awake. Just snuck out of bed for a quick puff. Hopefully that will help relax me. I’m kind of surprised that the exhaustion combined with the five miles I did today wasn’t enough on its own. My body hates me.
At least I can sleep late tomorrow if necessary. 🤷🏻♀️
I was awake most of the night.
It’s going to be a long day.
Luckily, my schedule looks fairly light; so at least I don’t have to do much interacting with others today.
4:36 am
I made the mistake of going to bed at ten. I’ve been awake since three. At least it’s Friday?
one thing never changes:
My insomnia.
I’d love to sleep through the night just once.
12:04 am
I’m feeling all kinds of weird and worked up right now. I’m not sure why. I should be asleep by now, because I’m exhausted, and this bed is comfortable. My brain is stupid and I hate it. We had a good night tonight. My favorite part was the long walk with the kids and the dog. I love how they just tell me everything without reservation. Being their confidant may be my favorite thing. Gotta enjoy it while it lasts, but I do very much hope it lasts forever. If only. My heart kind of aches tonight for both good and sad reasons. You know how it is.
a weird feeling
When you notice that you have “liked” and even commented on various social media posts, but you have no recollection of doing so, because it likely occurred while you were fucked up on Benadryl and unable to get to sleep.
At least I didn’t say anything inappropriate. Ha.
Oh one more thing…
We decided we’re planting one of these in our side yard; hopefully next weekend.
And I obviously know it will only be this color in Autumn, BUT JUST LOOK AT IT!!!! 😍
Okay, okay I’ll try to sleep now.
