thursday thoughts

/// I feel quite awful today. I mentioned that earlier, but it is getting worse, and I’m worried I really do have a cold – or worse…the flu. Fuck I hope not. All I know is that I feel like I feel when I’m hungover and yet I haven’t had any booze since dinner on Tuesday night. So…

/// I’ve taken to keeping blog related notes in Google Keep because I can’t remember shit anymore. I always have all these ideas and then they slip away.

/// Cub Scouts ended up not being so bad. It was very hands on, and sort of fun: we used the various tools on the knife to carve soap, turn screws into a block of wood, open a can, etc. Oh and I seem to have made a mom friend. Jack’s friend Zach’s mom has been putting forth effort into hanging out with me at the various events, and she’s cool, so I guess I should maybe ask her to do something? Idk. I don’t know how this works. Haha.

/// On my way in today, I saw a woman driving a mini van that had a bumper sticker which read, “I used to be cool,” and I felt that shit in my bones.

/// The fog this morning was intense, and while it seems to have lifted, it is still a very blah-gray day. January is the fucking worst.

/// Both of my knees are swollen. Only slightly so, which is good, I guess, but it still sucks, and I have zero energy. Everything is super meh right now.

/// I’ve been listening to the album The Bends quite a bit since the beginning of the year. It just speaks to me right now. All of the songs are good, as is the flow.

/// On the way to school, Jackson was referencing Monty Python, and I know D would be proud.

/// I think I’m going to challenge myself to wear more of the clothes in my closet. I’m thinking about not allowing myself to wear certain outfits until I’ve cycled through others. Maybe something like: you can’t wear the same outfit twice for an entire month? I may start this in February or I may not do it at all. We shall see.

/// I think there is supposed to be another big snow storm this weekend. I’m kind of over snow right now, tbh, because it’s currently all dirty and gross. But I wouldn’t hate being snowed in with the family for the weekend. We have a lot of tv, movies, and games to keep us entertained. In fact, I believe we had originally planned to watch all three LOTR movies this weekend anyway. At the kids’ request. I never say no to LOTR.

/// I’m planning a tea party! I’m so excited about this. I have a Pinterest board dedicated to it. I was concerned that nobody would be interested in attending, so I put out feelers on Facebook, and now there are too many people who want to come! My husband made fun of me, but the plan is to be quite fancy and pretentious with our fancy dresses, hats, and gloves while we eat tiny cucumber sandwiches, maracons, and the like. SQUEE!!! I’m trying to decide on timing. Spring feels most appropriate. Maybe March?

it’s friday, friends!

  • Woo lordy last night was fun. I’m feeling it today though. Mother’s Sunshine Chugsuckle is to blame.
  • I’m closing the office at noon today so we can all get home before #snowpocalypse2019 starts.
  • I love, love, love the way my stylist cut my bangs yesterday. I kept walking around last night talking about how cute I looked. Guess who’s back, bitches?
  • Speaking of — the bestie and I have the same stylist now, and we arranged it so that our appointments will always overlap. So I got to hang with my bestie while we got our hair done and it was delightful.
  • My husband told me that he loves 2019 Jenn’s new attitude, and you know what…me too!

List-y

Might as well blog while I sit here and wait on the water to boil.

Stuff and things —

  • My poor husband is incredibly hungover. He’s going to be feeling it for a couple of days. Getting old is a bitch. We had fun though!
  • I, on the other hand, feel pretty good thanks to caffeine, thrive+, and these mf-ing steroids.
  • Operation Fit By 40 is back at the top of my to-do list. Yeah it’s a cliché to start working out on New Years Day, but ask me if I care.
  • Related to the above point: I did 2 1/2 miles today. I jogged a lot of it, and while I was hella slow, it felt really fucking good to be running again.
  • I also renewed my Beachbody on Demand account with the intention of starting PiYo (and whatever else floats my boat). I’ve read good things, and it’s low impact, which is exactly what I need. I wanted to start tonight, but it’s still processing or some such shit. So tomorrow.
  • I cleaned up a bit around the house, and started to pack up Christmas, but barely. I figure as long as it’s all put away by the end of the weekend then we’re good to go. I’m going to enjoy it while I can.
  • I’m ready to go back to work tomorrow. Let’s do this! Gotta get ready for the busy season.
  • Freya and I started Season 2 of 13 Reasons Why and idk…so far I’m not too impressed. The first season was fantastic so I’m going to watch a few more before giving up on it.
  • Okay. Time to eat. Peace & love & a very happy new year. ❤️

Let’s list it.

  • It’s so weird to me that tomorrow is Thursday. The holidays have fucked my sense of time.
  • Three hours of D&D tonight with the family.
  • Freya and I watched like four episodes of 13 Reasons Why. We’ll start season 2 next time. That last episode was a lot, like my heart hurts.
  • It feels like everyone is off until the new year except me.
  • After I leave for work tomorrow morning, I won’t see the kids until Jan 1. I bet that day is full of D&D and the like.
  • I’m both craving and dreading the return to work. I’m walking back into a bunch of stressful shit, but I crave the routine. I need to get out of the house. I’ve been mostly cooped up for days.
  • I’ve been out of sorts today and I think cabin fever is at least partially to blame.
  • I bought a new planner. My goal is to actually follow through on using it. I don’t need it as a calendar so much, and I think my problem in the past has been that I tried using it that way. I’m a digital calendar gal. I have to be. I have my personal and work calendars merged on Google. Digital is the only way to go when your schedule changes as frequently as mine does. My new plan is to use the 2019 planner for lists, doodles, notes, and whatever else floats my boat. I’m going to think of it as less of a planner and more of a notebook/journal.
  • I have a list going in Google Keep of 2019 goals. I’ll be sharing that soon. I’m going to list it out in the new planner notebook as well.
  • We were supposed to host a party on NYE, but I’m all hosted out. Our friends have graciously taken the reigns, and I’m so pleased.
  • I wore my new Bose headphones tonight while I was vacuuming, and hoooooly shit they’re good. All I could hear was Fiona Apple. That noise canceling is legit.
  • I’m having a nice soak in a bubble bath. When I get out, I have a date on the couch with my husband. We need to finish Gladiator.
  • That’s all I’ve got. For now.

sunday status

  • I woke up with the same awful headache from yesterday (though slightly diminished) but the other symptoms seem to be gone. So the question becomes: do I take another pill knowing it’s going to make me feel absolutely wretched?
  • Last night drove home for me that a certain person can no longer be invited to our gatherings, at least the small, intimate ones. He’s disruptive, rude, and inconsiderate. I’m over it. D and I are the last of the group to keep including him, but we’ve finally reached our breaking point.
  • D planned a Holy Grail adventure. There was lots of nerding out. This is one of the few nerd subjects I am not well versed in. Fucking Monty Python 🤣
  • The only plans for today are going out to buy the rest of Jackson’s birthday gifts. We have his family party tomorrow night. I’m quite excited.
  • Oh and we had previously discussed buying Christmas decorations. We def need to do that. We’ll be putting up the tree on Friday once the kids get home.
  • And I need to refill and pick up my meds.
  • Oh and do like an hour of work. I have some cases to check.
  • And watch more of The Man in the High Castle. We just finished season one. I need to know what happens next. Next episode! Next episode!
  • It’s not even 9 yet, so I’m going to remain in bed next to my lightly snoring husband, and enjoy a lazy Sunday morning.

today’s checklist

Vote ✅
Breakfast @ Shack with the husband ✅
Prep for tomorrow’s bk docket ✅
Walk the dog
Binge more of The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina with the kiddos
Read
Meet N&N (and eventually D) for drinks at our fave local bar
Cry regarding election results: whether it is happy or sad tears remains to be seen.
Walk the dog again
Smoke and chill with D on the couch
Sleep

Okay so…

  • Tonight with the fam was just what I needed.
  • 2.5 miles tonight. #RiekAltRunningClub
  • And maybe 2 tequila shots.
  • F and I watched some Sunny. Her choice!
  • Tonight she said, “You give the best fashion advice,” and my heart almost exploded. ❤️
  • Also: “Everyone loves the jacket you helped me pick out.” ❤️❤️
  • The boy and I had a good run/walk and talk on the first lap.
  • He and his dad are moving back in with his grandma in November. I have many thoughts and feelings about this. Mostly, I’m grateful he’ll be with her. I know she’ll always take care of him.
  • My other not so nice thoughts about that situation I’ll just keep to myself. Well not to myself but I’ll keep them off the blog. Carrie and D have heard it all. Thanks, babes. 💙
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  • I have been having the hardest time getting into my BOTM Club pick this month. Cross Her Heart. It’s just dragging and I don’t really care about any of these characters. My goal is to finish it by the end of the weekend. It’s put me in a reading slump, and that simply will not do!
  • I think I’m going to do more video blogging. That was fun.
  • I say um a lot and twirl my hair when I’m nervous it seems.
  • I have a bunch of shit to do for my bestie’s bridal shower brunch on Sunday. So. Much. Stuff.
  • But I’m going to curl up in bed and cuddle the pup while I read. The husband is off in his study fighting WWII. I’m good with it because tomorrow night he’s all mine. ❤️❤️❤️
  • ttfn xoxo

Thoughts and things and stuff

  • Probably my biggest pet peeve is when people drag their feet for ages and then all of a sudden it’s a fucking emergency that I get something done asap. Nope. Fuck right off with that shit.
  • I drove seven hours today for a three minute hearing. Don’t get me started…
  • I’m extremely displeased with my body today. Ugh.
  • Sounds like we’re going to have some exciting news regarding the Halloween party. Stay tuned!
  • I need to figure out a way to relax that doesn’t involve alcohol. Or cake.
  • I’m going for a run tonight. Maybe that will help? The big question is will I go alone or with the kids. Both sound appealing for different reasons. I’m never really alone though because I always take B.
  • We had an expensive afternoon at the ren faire yesterday, but we came home with many amazing treasures. That deserves it’s own post.
  • Being a nerd ain’t cheap, y’all.
  • My husband walked in on me changing just now and I’m feeling a bit better about my body all of a sudden.
  • Spa day with my BFF tomorrow and I’m so very excited. We haven’t had a just us day in ages.
  • I have insomnia. Because of course.
  • You know you’re old when the most exciting part of your day is picking up your newly increased prescription retinoid. .05%, baby!
  • I have a new pair of shoes that are going to blow your fucking tits off with how absolutely fabulous they are. I may reveal them in my next outfit.
  • When Frey saw them tonight, she thought they were special occasion shoes (specifically she thought they were for my bestie’s wedding), but I plan to rock these babies on the reg.
  • In fact, I need hot pink heels for the wedding. The colors are navy and hot pink: one of my favorite combos btw.
  • I’m reading 3 books currently; one of which is a nonfiction book about being obsessed with reading. I identify with so much of it.
  • I sent out the invites for the Halloween party this afternoon. Well really it’s more of a save the date. I’m pumped though. My favorite time of year is upon us.
  • Which reminds me: I’m thinking of buying a dirndl.

early sunday 7

  1. We’re only halfway through this glorious long weekend, and it has been just what we needed.
  2. We’ve done a few little tweaks around the house and it’s looking really good.
  3. Today is plant and decor day. Gonna hit up Michael’s and Lowe’s for sure. We’re so suburban nowadays. ❤️
  4. The DMB show last night was decent, but not spectacular. I’m glad we decided to watch from home. All that money we saved can be spent on house stuff, like maybe the new bed. We’re trying to decide if we’re going to buy one this weekend before the holiday sales end. We found a nice one at the local furniture store.
  5. D has agreed to diet with me starting Tuesday, and this is awesome because it will be so much easier if we do it together. I need the support. I woke up very unhappy with my body today. This fat roll needs to gtfo. I can’t deal. I’m thinking about doing a low carb thing, since that seems to be working so well for a bunch of my friends.
  6. As it is officially September, we’re now in Halloween party planning mode. We’ve picked the date. Now we have to figure out the guest list. This party is always fucking epic and I’m so pumped. We’re doing it the weekend before Halloween to accommodate my bestie since she’ll be back from her honeymoon. That means it’s a custody weekend. This will be the first time the kids will be involved. Should be interesting.
  7. Speaking of our kids, I miss them so very much. Just one more weekend without them before we’re back on the normal schedule again. Can’t wait.

monday meanderings

  • I saw peacock sheets at Target today. I didn’t buy them because we are going to be upgrading to a bigger bed this fall, but maybe I should go buy the king sized set because I need them in my life. So cute.
  • Walking around Target in the middle of the day cured any residual baby fever. I saw three moms absolutely losing their shit because of cranky toddlers. At least I’ll never be dealing with that shit again. I felt for them.
  • These Mondays off help me want to go back to work. By late afternoon I’ve typically had enough weekend.
  • This past weekend was a fucking delight.
  • I miss our kids though and I can’t wait to see them tonight.
  • My weight was up today, but I’m certain it’s water weight from these wrecked muscles of mine. I’m going to keep on keeping on regardless because all this exercise has improved my mental well being.
  • I really need to remember that ^^^.
  • Finished another book. I think it was #63.
  • I’m implementing new rules for myself regarding social media usage. I need to step away from some of this shit.
  • Not the blog, of course. This is my own little personal internet haven.