Things have been so hectic recently, so I’m most grateful for this long weekend.
Last night, D and I had a date night. We got all dressed up. We had oysters. I drank all the prosecco. It was lovely. It was good to reconnect with him in a formal way. We’ve been seeing a lot of other people lately, and needed time for just us.
Who are the other people? M&J. We are seeing C&J tonight. That is our covid bubble.
Things have gotten slightly more intense with M&J. J wants more girl nights. M has asked if we can see each other regularly. I think he wants to see me every week, but that’s too much. I could do every two weeks. Maybe. It isn’t that I don’t enjoy spending time with him, because I really do, and I do want to be “official.” I just will not do it at the expense of time with D and the kids – so I have to strike the right balance. He wanted to go out next Thursday, and I suggested the Thursday after instead. Next Thursday, I plan to have another date night with my husband, as it will be our only kid-free night next week.
Also – I’ve been asked out for drinks by another guy that I’m into. We know him (and his wife) through M&J and have hung with them all recently. So technically they are also in our little bubble by default. His name also starts with an M, and his last name starts with a D, so I have no idea what to call him here. I guess I’ll just call him by his name: Michael.
I guess I should add for clarification that D and I have discussed trying separate dates / not as part of a couple. I guess people call those hall passes? Idk the right terminology. We have to approve the other person – meaning we have to be comfortable with the scenario. We have to talk out all the rules still, but he has a couple of ladies he wants to chat up. It’s cute, because he asked if I would help him. Aww. Which I totally will!
This was the natural next step for us given that he’s not necessarily as into the wives of the guys I’m into. Neither of us want anyone to take one for the team, but we also aren’t ready to stop this little adventure either. It has definitely spiced things up around here. (No red waste!)
But at this point, I am definitely at capacity. I do not have the time, energy, or desire to invest in anyone else right now. I am excited to see where these current scenarios lead.
My date with M was great. We went to this hole in the wall Mexican place that was absolutely delish.
We then headed back to my place for (more) drinks.
We had sex (duh), which was good, but my favorite part was the conversation. I love lively discourse. We talked a lot about music. We talked about childhood traumas. We laughed because my cat went under the bed and started clawing at us from the space between the headboard and the mattress. (She was like: Get oooooouuuuuttttt! That’s my mom! You are not the father!!) (PS: if you get that reference, I fucking love you).
M is such a gentleman. He opens doors for me, which is really sweet. He holds my hand while we’re walking. I’m an old fashioned gal when it comes to romance. I like to be treated like a queen.
Oh and I must have looked really hot, because when he saw me he was like “Whoa look at you!” And when we got to the restaurant, I got all sorts of looks/stares. So I was either looking hot or like a hot mess. My dress was very short.
The really great thing is that these nights inevitably lead to the hottest, most passionate fucks with my husband the next morning. GOD DAMN. Did I have a great time with M? Yes. Does it even begin to compare with the fun I have with D? Nope. BUT it does add a little spice. We talked non-stop from about six pm to one am tonight about all the things. (At one point, we held each other and sobbed because…well you know why).
I’ve decided I’m not going to hide my lifestyle choices any longer. I’m not necessarily going to broadcast that we’re poly, but I’m not going to hide it either. I’ve been (mostly) hiding it for ten years (being in the LS). I’m over it.
I am who I am. 🤷🏻♀️
In fact, I outted us to Freya tonight. I really don’t think she was surprised tho. She likes to hang around and listen to our chit chat/banter, so she’s picked up on a lot of shit.
It’s 2:33 am. I should really go the fuck to sleep.
PS AGAIN: I’m not proofreading this. Forgive me.
I was sitting at home drinking when D got home from his date. I cancelled mine to be with my bestie, obvi, but I told him to go ahead with his date, because why should he sit at home alone. Anyway – it was good to see his face, to hear the details of his night, and, to be honest, to hear about how he talked about me way too much, because he’s a dude who is just madly in love with his wife. And goddamn does his wife love him back.
He told me he kissed her goodnight, which is no biggie, especially considering the original plans, but I actually liked that it made me just a tiny bit jealous. Just jealous enough that I grabbed him and kissed him quite passionately, to remind him of what he has here waiting for him at home. We then stripped and made out in the kitchen before running to our bedroom where we had the most intensely hot sex. We both agreed that the blow job I gave tonight was a fucking masterpiece.
Afterwards, while we were drinking, i gave him some shit for his joking response to something I posted on Facebook. Yesterday, I shared a post that said “describe me with one word” to which he replied “astronaut.” (I laughed, for the record – that’s just so us). I then asked him for his real one word answer, and he replied, “Everything.”
It’s our anniversary…
Our gift to ourselves:
Cake! This is from the bakery where we got our wedding cake.
I bought us this $55 bottle of wine, and it was sooooo good.
Jackson is here tonight, so he hung with us for a bit.
Tonight, during our bedtime medicine routine, D asked, “Where’s the vitamin D?” So I grabbed his dick and replied, “Right here.”. Then we both giggled.
I love him so much. We have so much fun together.
I felt a bit better today, so we went out for a bit.
That song will now always remind me of the really hot sex we had tonight on the couch in the great room. It was that really amazing, uninhibited drunk/high sex, made even better by the fun conversations we had before and after.
I really needed that. Holy shit. What a great evening.
I’m also happy to report that my friend, who is going through a nasty divorce, finally had good sex for the first time ever, and I was the first/only person she told, because I encouraged her to get that dick. ♥️
Hello, October!! ❤️
This is my favorite month. I woke up feeling refreshed and happy.
We have lots of fun stuff planned this month, including our Halloween gathering. I guess I should try on my costume and make sure it fits.
It’s also breast cancer awareness month, and I’ll be doing some stuff to help raise awareness specifically about metastatic breast cancer. Breast cancer gets lots of attention, but MBC is often ignored. Not on my watch!!
I have a hair appointment this afternoon, and I’m going to mix things up a bit. First of all, I’ll be getting bangs cut. But I’m also going to step outside my color comfort zone and get some highlights. Mer and I have decided on burgandy highlights. I’m nervouscited. I am so particular about my hair that there is a good chance I’ll hate it, but I’m in the mood to mix things up.
D and I are having a date night tonight. We have reservations at a fancy steakhouse. I’m so looking forward to it. I’m hoping I’ll be able to get him to relax (his job is HARD), and then my plan is to bring him home and seduce him. 😘
I’m also looking forward to Saturday night. Me and Jen are having a horror movie night. She’s creeped out by dolls (who isn’t?), and has never seen any of the Annabelle movies, so the plan is to start there.
I’m also super excited to report that we put a deposit down for landscaping. I’m finally getting my hydrangea bush!! It’s going to be a couple of months before they can get started, but I’m so pumped. I’m also setting up a consult to get drapes on the wall of windows in the great room. I’m hoping to get those in quickly, because they’d be nice for the holidays.