I’ve had this stuck in my head for days. I really dig this song, and I wish I could go see her at the Pageant on the 20th, but the timing is just bad.

How can anybody have you?
How can anybody have you and lose you?
How can anybody have you and lose you
And not lose their minds, too?

Los Ageless – St. Vincent


I’m going to see Matchbox Twenty & Counting Crows tonight with friends and I’m really looking forward to it. In preparation for the concert, I listened to M20 on my way down to the office this morning. A song I hadn’t heard in a very long time came on and it instantly transported me to 1998, sitting in my (now) ex’s dorm room, while he sang the song to me. It blindsided me and I got a bit upset, because the memory is bittersweet; especially given the lyrics of the song and where we ended up. Anyway, it looks like it’s on the set list for this tour, so hopefully I don’t lose my shit when they play it. Everything makes me cry nowadays. Ugh.

You’ve gotta take the good with the bad. The good memories I’ll recall tonight will far outweigh the bad/sad, and I am excited to spend a fun filled evening with my old school peeps.


my musical history 

I’ve been listening to lots of old Spotify playlists recently in an effort to get into a big picture relationship head space. I’m hoping that this will help me write my marriage vows. I just wanted to add a bit of early relationship inspiration into the mix. 

What I’ve learned is that so many songs I listened to in 2012 and 2013 have special meanings for me and so many of these songs bring me to tears. 

On Tuesday night, after a fabulous night out in the city, I drove home alone, with the top down, and sobbed hysterically while singing along loudly to Taylor Swift’s You Belong With Me

This morning, on the way to work, I heard Tegan and Sara’s song I Won’t Be Left and completely lost my shit. That one I used to listen to a lot. 

And then there’s also Hands Down, Hysteric,  I Know, I Know, I Know and Anything We Want and Moses and Sometime Around Midnight. Oh and Stubborn Love, of course. I could go on and on. 

Music is so powerful. I love rediscovering these pieces of my musical history. It’s so satisfying to sing along with the soundtrack of my life. 

It will be fun to look back at myself in a few years and rediscover what I love right now. It will be a lot of DMB, Arcade Fire, and Depeche Mode, to be sure.