August blog challenge: day 8

The story behind your blog name.

I have two blogs, but I’m only going to discuss this one here. I don’t need anymore people knowing about the other one than already do. I’m actually considering going back to it because there are better privacy settings. Decisions, decisions.

(Actually…I have four blogs if you count the porn blog and the totally anonymous one nobody else knows about. It hasn’t been used in a long time though.)

Anyway…It’s Only Make Believe is a song by Conway Twitty that I loved as a kid. Fiona Apple covered it during her 2012 tour and I fell in love with it all over again.

The lyrics to Yuk Foo

Am I a bitch to not like you anymore?

Punch me in my face, I wouldn’t even fight you no more

‘Cause you bore me

You bore me to death, well deplore me

No, I don’t give a shit

I wanna fuck all the people I meet

Fuck all my friends and all the people in the street

‘Cause you bore me

You bore me to death, well deplore me

Well, I don’t give a shit (shit, shit, shit)

I don’t wanna be cruel, but you’re really grinding

I’m not a fool but I have a rage and it’s blinding

I feel it coming, is it exciting?

I feel it coming, yeah I’m unwinding

You bore me

You bore me to death, well deplore me

No, I don’t give a shit

You bore me

You bore me to death, well deplore me

No, I don’t give a shit

You bore me to death

No, I don’t give a shit

Yeah I have feelings, ’cause I’m a human

A totally self-destructive, constantly consuming

And now I’m fucked, and that fucks you too

So fuck the world, and you, and you and you and

You bore me

You bore me to death, well deplore me

No, I don’t give a shit

You bore me

You bore me to death, well deplore me

No, I don’t give a shit

You bore me to death

No, I don’t give a shit

You bore me to death

No, I don’t give a shit

The setlist last night was sweet. I especially enjoyed the Gravedigger —> Warehouse segment. The new songs have actually grown on me, especially That Girl is You and Samurai Cop. They’ve been playing The Idea of You for years before they put it on this album, so I don’t really count that as new, but I do like it.

They’ve played Crush at our last two shows and Dave is never with me when it plays, which sucks because that’s one of our songs. I got a text from him last night as it started that said “fuck!” and I laughed because I knew exactly why he sent it. Unfortunately, it doesn’t sound quite as awesome without Boyd. I very much miss Boyd. I can hear his violin in my head as the songs play. If he’s not going to be able to come back, I hope they’ll replace him for any future touring.

All in all, this was a great show. I’m grateful for such a sweet set, because I think we’re going to skip the Gorge. We have other stuff we’d rather do with our time and money this summer.

11:25 pm

I really need to just go the fuck to sleep. Luckily, it feels like my Benadryl just kicked in. 💙

This song though. I like this one. I relate to this one. Also, it brings up good memories from 2012.

Gone Away

Whenever my husband travels for work, I’m always reminded of the song Gone Away by My Brightest Diamond.

Far away you’ve gone and left me here

So cold without you, so lonely dear

May, June, July, I count the time

Every minute I go, takes the smell of your clothes…further away.

It’s a hauntingly beautiful and heartbreaking song. I discovered the band when they opened for The Decemberists back in 2007. I fell in love with their sound, and enjoyed their set way more than the main act. I have a major weakness for female/piano acts.

I don’t listen to MBD very often nowadays, so it always strikes me as interesting that this song haunts me in this way.

I never used to be this way. I’m generally good at being alone. I used to love it when my ex left town. I used to crave it. But now? I just feel like I’m missing a piece of myself.

This post brought to you by Benadryl 💙