at this moment

In like 1986, when I was seven years old, I heard the following song on Family Ties and it struck me as the most beautiful and romantic song ever. My thoughts on that particular subject have changed over the years, but this song still holds a special place in my heart, and I get all teary eyed whenever I hear it, which admittedly isn’t often. For some reason, I’ve had it in my head the last couple of days and have been singing it to myself.

At This Moment:

What did you think I would do at this moment
When you’re standing before me
With tears in your eyes
Trying to tell me that you have found you another
And you just don’t love me no more

What did you think I would say at this moment
When I’m faced with the knowledge
That you just don’t love me
Did you think I would curse you
Or say things to hurt you
’cause you just don’t love me no more

Did you think I could hate you
Or raise my hands to you
Now come on you know me too well
How could I hurt you when darling I love you
And you know I’d never hurt you

What do you think I would give at this moment
If you’d stay I’d subtract twenty years from my life
I’d fall down on my knees
And kiss the ground that you walk on
If I could just hold you again

I’d fall down on my knees
And kiss the ground that you walk on baby
If I could just hold you…
If I, could just hold you…

If I…
If I could just hold you

this is the dawning of the rest of our lives 

Family’s first concert! We saw Catfish & The Bottlemen and Green Day tonight. It was awesome! 

The two dudes next to us told me that we won the Best Parents Ever award and that I won the MILF award. Yessssssss. 

I feel pretty fucking good about the fact that we were home, and the kids were in bed, by 1140. Parenting skills, yo. (Frey had school today so she couldn’t hang for very long).

new writing challenge! (and other things)

One of my best girls over on Tumblr found a new challenge for us to do in August:


Join us!

Also: I totally failed at the July challenge because the prompts really started to suck around mid-month, so I gave up. This one seems legit, though I’ve written about some of these prompts in previous challenges. Like #1. So I’m going to skip #1 and write about something else instead…

So today I was listening to a shared playlist (from D’s Spotify account) entitled Memories and it inspired me to do a blog post regarding the soundtrack of our relationship.

I’m not going to share all the songs that are on the list (or should be on the list but haven’t been added yet) because holy fuck that would be a long list. I’m going to share my top five instead. If you’ve been following along at all, you should know that I LOVE Top 5 lists (thanks, High Fidelity).

#1 – Shove by Angels & Airwaves: Dave texted me back in April 2012 and asked me to listen to this song because it could express his feelings better than he could. Listening to the lyrics, I cried because I understood…perfectly.

It can be so bold and so cavalier
To reach out to the fire her soul’s sending here
It can be like death that blows like a breeze
Making all ones strength go weak at the knees
I hate to feel the shallow ground giving way
I’ve never let myself fall this much astray
And feeding on her touch is all one does to survive

#2 – Sway by Bic Runga: This was my response to him.

Don’t stray
Don’t ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don’t let me drown
Let me down
I say it’s all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I’m practicing your name
So I can say it to your face, it doesn’t seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed it’s time
Tell you why
I say its infinitely true

#3 – Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional. I don’t want to share the exact circumstances under which this became “our” song, but it did, and it is very special to me. I’m going to sob uncontrollably when it plays at our wedding. I just know it.

My hopes are so high,
That your kiss might kill me.
So won’t you kill me,
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewelry,
Whichever you prefer.

#4 – Hysteric by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

You suddenly complete me

#5 – Temptation by New Order: This is a recent addition, but an important one.

And I’ve never seen anyone quite like you before
No, I’ve never met anyone quite like you before


welcome to the neighborhood 

Last night, I was rocking out to Some Heads Are Gonna Roll by Judas Priest in the convertible as I passed my neighbor and her young daughter walking their dog. They looked confused and slightly frightened, and I loved it. Ha. 

D teased me for listening to Ozzy’s Boneyard on SiriusXM but it gives me life sometimes. ❤️