We went to an LS meet & greet tonight, for the first time in like 6 years, and it was fun, though there were no connections made. It felt good to be back in the scene though. It was also good for my self-esteem. I actually felt sexy.
(It helps that D and I had amazing sex last night, and I felt very sexy despite feeling old and chubby. I realized that I’m still a fucking snack – and not despite it, BUT BECAUSE OF IT).
D and I have decided to check out another location soon. We’re also going to hit up a strip club, because we’ve never gone together. I’m so happy that we’re back to mixing it up TOGETHER. ♥️
I woke up feeling pretty good today. My energy is high (for me). I think today will be a good day.
On today’s agenda:
Cleaning all the things.
Finish up drafting a few legal docs.
Taking the boy to get a much needed haircut. He def has my hair – well the hair I used to have pre-cancer. It grows quickly and is very thick. His dad is bald, and has been for years, so he got lucky.
Picking up the girl from band at 4:30. I’m just waiting for her to ask if she can go to her bf’s house or if he can come here. Ugh. She is obsessed with this kid, and it is affecting everything she does (including her life goals – like she doesn’t want to go to college anymore, just wants to marry this kid). He was here last night. Had dinner with us. Then later they got busted getting it on – yep, yep, yep that happened. D is freaking out/furious/disappointed. I don’t know what to do with her anymore. There is a lot more going on that I am not going to share here, but none of it is good. She is quite the handful right now. I’m just lucky that she confides in me so that I can try to keep her from going completely off the rails. She does seem to take my advice to heart most of the time.
After that, I have to pretty myself up for date night with my gf. We are going to Dave & Busters tonight. I’m so excited.
Tomorrow morning, I’ll be driving about an hour for an in-person court hearing. It sounds like I only need a continuance, so it sucks that this requires an appearance, but it will be sort of good to get out into the mix; even if it is for something fucking stupid.
I do hate the clerks down in this particular county though. The PA, too. They are all a bunch of dicks and they hate the “big city attorneys” and treat us like shit. One of them asked me once if I was stupid because I asked about one of their procedures – I’m serious. LOL forever. Fucking hicks. I bet I get the Delta Variant down there.
Anyhoo – I have high hopes that these cancer meds are actually working for me, and that is maybe why I am feeling better, and that maybe life will feel normal for a bit. I/we deserve it.
I had a getting-to-know-you lunch date with a cute couple who have been pursuing me for a while. They are very sweet, but not sure there is a love connection on my end. Still, I’m grateful for the experience, and the new friends. ♥️
Special shout out to my beautiful meta, A, for hanging with/taking care of D, who’s still recovering from his painful af surgery, while I went to explore the dungeon. Finally! ♥️
Oh and I had dinner with MVS and his wife, and met his kids. He has met my husband and kids. He and A have their own relationship as well. I’m just loving this kitchen table poly thing we have going on.