1:21 am

It’s hard to come down after a show like that. Wowza.

I’m the only one still awake.

I told D that next year we’re doing the pit. It’s on my list.

Summer dick is back!!

And now I’m in the wet spot. 😂

I got a beer at the show, which I had budgeted calories for, and I didn’t even finish it, because meh.

I’ve eaten so much lettuce over the last few days, I feel like a rabbit.

I earned a fuck ton of activity points today yesterday by walking two miles and then immediately doing 30DS. Boom. Gotta do that again. (I track it on my apple watch).

I saw this on Tumblr and I like it, though I still personally believe that marriage is, in fact, beautiful. I enjoy the sentiment. 💕

Is it okay if I call you mine, from here on out? As if I could ever stop. ❤️

what’s going on?

  • I took the day off today. I knew I would be tired after the concert, and I had some important errands to deal with. Now that the errands are completed, and I’m back home, I can definitely say that was a good call on my part.
  • It’s rainy and dreary today. I definitely see a nap in my future.
  • My registration is renewed!! They are giving out new plates due to the upcoming Missouri bicentennial. Now I just have to put them on my car. You should read that as, “Now my husband needs to put them on my car.” Lol.
  • I have my mom’s Mother’s Day gift sorted out and set to be delivered. I need to plan a trip to go up and see her once the kids are out of school for the summer.
  • I’m not really sure what my plans are for Mother’s Day. I don’t really think I want to go out this year. I’d rather just chill at home with the boys. We will do the gifts in the morning before Freya leaves to be with her mom. We have a busy af weekend ahead of us, so being chill on Sunday sounds nice. Maybe we can grill. Grill and chill. Lol. Drinks on the patio. Cuddles. Maybe a walk? Yeah…that sounds fantastic.
  • I feel like my face is going to explode…yet again. I think I need to look into a new allergy medication. The Allegra doesn’t seem to be doing anything at all, and I am miserable.
  • The Mixtape Tour was super fun. I managed to snag fantastic seats. We saw NKOTB, Salt N Pepa, Naughty By Nature, Debbie Gibson, and Tiffany. I loved the format, and how interactive it was. My very first concert ever was NKOTB when I was 11, and I was obsessed with Debbie Gibson, so this was a fun trip down memory lane. Debbie’s voice has not held up, unfortunately, but I still got her t-shirt (lol). I never got to see her in concert back in the day. All in all, it was a fun evening with the girls, full of nostalgia and lolz. My sister and I howled with laughter when Donnie ripped off his shirt. 10/10 would recommend. Haha.
  • Speaking of concerts…next Wednesday night is DMB!!!! I took the day of the show, as well as the day after, off, because the STL DMB show is like a holiday for me. Haha.
  • Tonight is date night. We are trying out a new place we discovered last weekend.
  • I’m going to crawl into bed with my book now. Yesssssssss.

I thought about being productive

But then I decided against it. Lol.

Though I did fuck with the laundry. Gotta make sure we have clean clothes for the beginning of the week.

Today will be a chill day. Our plans include lunch on a favorite brewery patio. Eventually we will hit the gym for strength. I can’t wait to do more benching!! I’m hoping to convince the husband that we should do some shopping. Our evening plans include cooking a Mexican feast, followed by the new GoT. We have to watch last week’s episode again before the new one, because duh. That kills like three hours right there, between the two.

This week should be good. My business partner should be back in the office, which means I can hopefully concentrate on my own work instead of being the only attorney. Monday night I’ll have my kiddos back. Wednesday night is NKOTB!! I’m off on Thursday (to recover). Next weekend is packed with all kinds of stuff, including Mother’s Day, which snuck up on me. I guess I’m taking Freya shopping tomorrow night!

Ttfn.

miscellaneous bullets

  • I had to wake up super early this morning, and I am grouchy as a result. I am not a morning person. I have also not been adequately caffeinated. Bad combo.
  • This super dreary, rainy weather is not helping.
  • But…I’m having Bread Co deliver two cans of Diet Pepsi along with my salad. Thank god for Bread Co delivery.
  • I am super duper pumped about date night tonight. We have a reservation at a place we really enjoy, but rarely go. The wine will flow.
  • I finally have an appointment to take my car into the dealer. I’m going for service, but will get the emissions testing done while I’m there. It’s still a week away, and I had to reschedule appointments to make it happen, but it feels good to know there is an end in sight. This stupid shit has been making me anxious. Mostly just because I know I’m going to get pulled over at the worst possible time, because that’s how it works.
  • I haven’t been reading as much these last couple of weeks. I think it’s a combination of factors: (1) the books I’ve been reading aren’t all that fabulous, and (2) I’m trying to be more actively engaged in the real world.
  • I feel like I’m drowning at the office. The stack of cases to be prepared has gotten so big. I am super overwhelmed, and my business partner is zero help. He’s never fucking here. I’m going to have to bring a bunch of work home with me this weekend. It’s the only time I have to get ahead of shit. More and more, the people coming in for consultations are requesting me personally, so I don’t even get a break there. I have to meet with them all, and do all the attorney work on the back end. I NEED HELP.
  • Fuck it. I’ll get it done. I always do.
  • There is this song by White Zombie called Thunder Kiss ’65 (not my usual jam to be sure), which I hear on Lithium from time to time, and there is this one part that I love so much, where a female voice says, “I never try anything, I just do it.” I feel that shit in my fucking bones.
  • So I guess I better go just do it. Right? Right.

late thursday thoughts

I’m bloggy af tonight, bro. I guess I’m making up for how pent up I’ve been feeling recently.

I’m getting mad compliments lately on the Anastasia of BH rose gold eyeshadow I’ve been rocking. Def gonna hit the pan on that one.

Dark hair dye = special pillowcase for like the next week.

That lunch today with James and Carrie: we just pick right back up in that way that you only do with the best of friends. I absolutely adore them.

Idk why, but I’m feeling myself right now, and I’m just gonna go with it.

Today I heard, “Holy shit! There’s no way you’re almost 40,” and I’m fucking here for it!

I impressed and surprised my husband this evening by using the term “wanker” very appropriately. I love making him laugh.

Our dinner was so fucking legit, but next time we’re going to tweak it with a bit of white wine for a saucier finish. Leftovers for lunch tomorrow!

I’m in a fantastic mood, and it shows.

Love you, bye ❤️

this needs to happen

I want to watch all of the Alien movies over the course of the next month or so. Scott and I were chatting about them and it got me in the mood to re-watch all of them in order (including the prequels). Sci fi horror is one of my favorite genres.

the way we get by

Our new bed is so delightful, it has made getting up in the morning even harder.

If you are a grown ass woman with a license plate that says “princess,” I’m judging the fuck out of you, and I’m not even a little bit sorry.

It may still be cold, but it’s technically spring, and I’ve decided to start dressing accordingly.

Pink shoes!!!

This is my third day wearing my new foundation: It Cosmetics Confidence in a Foundation, and I’m ready to give my review: it’s fucking amazing! I thought I’d end up hating it because it’s both full coverage and matte, which doesn’t usually mix well with my dry skin, but it’s fucking legit. That selfie above is not filtered, and I think my skin is looking pretty good.

Also…see bonus kitty on the bench?! She’s a cutie.

I kind of want to do this, but I probably shouldn’t do this…right?

I am ridiculously excited about the upcoming weekend. D and I have a lot of fun stuff planned.

Tonight is a bestie date. Shopping and dinner. Woot.

I want to buy a trench coat for spring. My old one is worn and not fitting as well as I’d like…it was always a bit too small. But I love that trench coat look for spring. I don’t want a khaki one. Something cuter than that obvi.

Okay gotta go to court. Peace out. ❤️

things

I woke up last night around 2:30 am in full-on anxiety mode. I went down this rabbit hole of reasons I suck at life, and it just went from there. I think I finally fell asleep again a little after 4 am. I was already exhausted from a bad night of sleep the night before, so I’m really dragging today.

At one point, in the middle of the anxiety attack, I went into the bathroom and just stared at myself in the mirror for a while. It was surprisingly helpful. I guess I needed to see for myself that I was okay. That everything is fine.

My husband is worried about me. He’s so loving and supportive. Always complimenting me, encouraging me, and bascially just loving me through my life. I’m lucky to have him. I feel bad that I make him sad by being this way. Hopefully the bad feelings will pass soon – I need a break from the every day grind (which I’ll get this weekend) and some sun certainly wouldn’t hurt.

In addition to anxiety, I woke up with a swollen knee. I’m hopeful the new meds will be delivered today, and that they will actually help me, though that’s likely to be a bit of a slow burn. These meds don’t fix things overnight.

In other news – just four hours before I’m on vacation. I’ll be out until Tuesday morning. I’m hoping this little break will reset my patience, because the struggle is fucking real right now.

I am leaving a bit earlier than usual today, because I have Jackson’s parent/teacher conference.

I have a bunch of shopping related errands that need to happen before we leave town. Also laundry. And tidying up. And packing. I guess I’m going to be busy tonight. We’re leaving later in the day tomorrow, so I’ll have all day to pack too. I’m a terrible packer. I want to bring all the things.

I took a bunch of pics last night that I had planned to blog – a little date night post – but I think I’ll just keep them for me. I’ll be doing plenty of photo blogging over the weekend, I’m sure.

 

sunday sundries

  • It has been a quiet, chill weekend.
  • And also a cold weekend. I’ve spent almost all of it under a blanket.
  • Another snowstorm graced us with its presence today. We had to head out on the slippery roads to get Freya from her friend’s house, so we decided to go out for lunch too. We only got stuck once and I maneuvered us out of it fairly quickly. Not too bad for a VW Beetle.
  • We paid a neighborhood kid to shovel the driveway and sidewalk. A good way to spend $20. Especially since I expect things will get quite icy overnight.
  • I have a short work week ahead: just three days. I have much work to squeeze in that time.
  • D and I are going out of town on Thursday. He is spending the week after in the Cleveland office, and since I’ve never been to Cleveland, we decided to do a weekend away. I’m excited to meet up with friends on Friday night, and to check out the local brewery scene. Southern Tier is within walking distance of the hotel. Our friends are going to spend Friday night at the same hotel, so I imagine we’ll stay out late getting good and drunk. I also hope to do some shopping. I’m sure we’ll check out the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame too, because duh.
  • I’ve been obsessing over decor for the mantle in the great room. It needs a make over. I have an idea in mind – just need to find the right pieces.
  • We’re making another new recipe tonight. I think there’s going to be a lot of that this month. I’m in a try all the new things sort of mood.
  • I think it’s related to cabin fever. I need spring. The winter weather has beaten me down. I have a head full of plans for spring. And summer, too.

Hello, March!

Fucking finally, yo.

We’re getting another arctic nut punch, but that’s okay, because it’s the month of more daylight hours and Spring. We’re sooooo close to being done with Winter. Seriously…fuck Winter.

Yesterday, I was almost in a car accident. The streets downtown were hella icy. A car spun out right in front of me, and then I did too. It was scary.

This is Mardi Gras weekend, but it’s gonna be a no from me, dog. Like always.

However, I’ve promised the husband and the bestie that I’d celebrate Saint Patrick’s Day, and that’s more than enough worthless, overhyped holiday, ridiculously crowded, day drinking celebration for me.

I’m supposed to be working from home today (before and after the bed delivery) but I think I want to chill instead. Reading and relaxing sound much better. Let’s get a jump start on the weekend, shall we?

friday morning five

  1. I have a very happy kitty sitting on my lap right now demanding all the cuddles. Whenever I stop petting her, she bites me. And the purrs are so loud I can hardly hear myself think. Lol. She’s come a long way in her tolerance for others, but I’m truly her one and only person. I love her to pieces, but I do hope our next cat is more social.
  2. I’m still lying about in bed at almost 9 am on a Friday morning, and it is glorious. I’m so pleased I thought to take this day off. I brought a bag full of stuff home to work on this weekend, but just getting a break from the office is nice.
  3. Around lunchtime, I shall go pick up the kiddos and treat them to a special lunch date. No school today or Monday. Nice!!
  4. Yesterday we were listening to the 90s alt-rock station (Lithium) on the way to school, and Madison (the dj) mentioned a disposable camera. Jackson asked, “What’s a disposable camera?” And I felt old. He doesn’t really understand cameras with film. I remember when he was two and didn’t understand that the TV wasn’t a giant touch screen. It’s still sort of weird to me how much different his childhood has been from my own.
  5. Weekend plans: the usual Friday night routine. I believe we’ve chosen a menu of salmon, baked potato, and asparagus. Exercise needs to happen; both cardio and strength training. Saturday night were going out for dinner and drinks with friends. As for Sunday, I’ve promised Freya a shopping trip. I also need to find a new book to read. Nothing is really standing out to me right now.

happy valentine’s eve!

Thank god for the “save to draft” feature.

Today has been a fucking shit show.

I’m home now though and soaking away my troubles in my giant bathtub. I had a lovely evening with my kiddos — even after a slightly uncomfortable conversation with the soon-to-be-teen about a topic she’s very defensive about but won’t stop bringing up. Sigh. Whatever…I’m going to keep it real with her like I always do. It’s my job. Parenting ain’t easy, y’all.

Just so I remember:

At one point she said, “I think you just have higher standards than most people,” to which I replied,”No, I just actually have standards.”

She couldn’t really argue with that and so I changed the subject. I figure she can chew on that for a bit and we can discuss it more later.

But all’s well that ends well and tomorrow is another day!

Oh and happy galentine’s day to all of my fabulous ladies! ❤️