– I am high on a gummy and it’s a delight.

– The Conjuring, in particular, and horror generally, is my go-to source of comfort. Current status: on the couch, high af, watching TC on Netflix. Up next: The Conjuring 2. Lol.

Zofran is my new best friend.

I’m getting better at allowing myself to just be, and not beating myself up for not living up to my ridiculous expectations for myself.

Like my weight, for example: I’ve gained some back since stopping keto, but I’m not obsessing (too much – ha). I’m being gentle with myself for the first time maybe ever.

Let’s talk side effects so far: fatigue, dry mouth, loss of appetite, nausea, and headache.

I’m going to try to get back to my normal routine tomorrow. I think some normalcy would do me good.

Oh and here is a pic of me from yesterday, just because I like it.

I’m trying to get back into the habit of posting my day-to-day bullshit here.

The day so far:
– huge docket at 9 am. I was stressing hardcore over this one. It is the biggest, messiest docket I’ve had since before I started my own firm. DG has a lot more cases than I do, so when I’m covering both of us, stuff gets a bit crazy. Plus, the judge is a scary man. I’ve been practicing in front of him for 14 years, and I still get anxious and nauseated before the docket. But during? Adrenaline rush. Everything moves so quickly, you barely have time to think. I love it (don’t believe the lies I tell about not loving it).
– Miscellaneous paperwork while eating my 1st meal.
– I spent two hours prepping for my 2 pm docket, which had a super weird, no good case on it,. I knew I had no chance of winning, but I was ready to bring my A game regardless. I swallowed my nerves (same judge as this morning btw), joined the conference call, and the judge couldn’t hear any of us due to technical error (he had us all on “listen only” status). So the case got continued, which is actually really good for my client, so I’ll take it as a win.
– And now? It is almost 3 pm. I am about to logout for the day. I need to shower and beautify myself, because tonight is date night with my man. He wants to do something fancy tonight, so I get a chance to dress up. I’m currently wearing raccoon printed leggings and a sweatshirt that says “I am unable to quit as I am currently too legit.” Yep.

The rest of the week looks pretty good. There is no more court (*praise hands*) this week. We are kid-free until Monday afternoon. Tomorrow night is poly double date night! I am super pumped about this development. The rest of the weekend is kind of up in the air since I’m getting my second covid shot on Saturday afternoon, and we aren’t sure what to expect. Still – that’s an excellent problem to have. Every other weekend this month is pretty much booked, so it’s good to have nothing planned.

My mood has been better this week. I think it’s because of all of the sunlight. It feels weird saying that since I’ve always considered myself a vampire, but I guess I am not immune from S.A.D. after all. I’m trying to enjoy this limited time where it’s not brutally cold or brutally hot. This time is so short lived here in MO.

I’m on the struggle bus with my diet this week, and I’m not sure I’m going to make my 1%. I need to get down to 139.5 by Friday morning, and I weighed in this morning at 140.9. I keep losing and gaining the same pound. It’s totally my fault. I have been cheating. Too many tequila shots, and not finishing all my water. I’ve gotta get my head back in the game. Can’t stop/won’t stop. (If for no other reason than my husband cannot keep his hands off of me, and is constantly telling me how hot I look. All the yes).

Another motivation: I told myself I cannot have any of the keto cheesecake I bought until I see the 130s on my scale. I really, really want to get high and eat some of this fucking cheesecake, so I need to get my shit in order. Jen told me it is amazing.

Okay, okay. This is boring as fuck. I know, I know.

xoxo

Hey, hey, Friday! It’s a little before noon and I am already done working for the day. Tis glorious.

My week in review:
– lots of court
– a fun snowy afternoon with my son (and the husky)
– ordered a strap-on
– played Truth or Drink with MP (via Zoom)
– found out that I may not be able to get the vaccine (more on this later)
– had a first date with a lady I met in the poly group. It went really well.
– and now her fiance and boyfriend are messaging me. What is my life?
– lots of hot sexy time with D. He is def showing his appreciation for my hard work.
– hit my 1% loss goal for my CR custom program. I’m now at 9 pounds lost!

Weekend stuff I’m looking forward to:
– Friday night cooking date with D tonight. Ribeye!!!
– Sunday afternoon shopping date with D. We are going shopping!
– My kids will be home this weekend, so I’m looking forward to spending time with them.
– reading. duh.

I woke up with a bad headache. I think it’s time to rest up for a bit. I have a few hours still before I need to go pick up my kids.

Happy Friday!!

– Well somehow tomorrow is Monday already, which sucks.

– I have treatment tomorrow morning, and that will take up half of my day. I’m not complaining though because I’m just so very grateful that this treatment is still working.

– I joined the 10 pound take down / Code Red challenge for January, which starts tomorrow. I have two friends doing it with me, which will make it easier. I went shopping today and bought keto foods, as well as some meal prep containers, and a huge water bottle. Oh and D is being super supportive. He’s planning out some keto dinners. I’m weirdly excited.

– I think I going to buy one of those DB Method squat machines. They have amazing reviews.

– I did this to myself somehow, and it hurts like a motherfucker.

– We took down all the Christmas decor today, and I’m sort of bummed about it. The house feels so big and empty now.

Miscellaneous:

Okay bye.