But I honestly don’t feel jealous right now. I can hear them laughing together in the other room, watching their shitty shows (😂), and I genuinely feel happy to hear them be happy. I guess this is compersion?
My boyfriend (I like saying that!!) came over tonight. He made us keto friendly Indian food, which was delicious. We talked quite candidly about all the things, and I’m feeling really good about us right now. I’m so glad I trusted my instincts and dug in tonight. We for sure leveled up.
We also had many shots of expensive tequila. My weigh-in tomorrow is going to be awful, and I’ll probably be hungover, but I have no regrets. ♥️
D and I had a great night of reconnection. He was feeling upset about something, and we talked it out over the course of the night. He was so forthcoming and vulnerable with me, and I’m really loving how expressive he is being nowadays.
He was worried I was going to be upset with him, but not even close. I choose him. Always.
In my wedding vows, I promised D that we would never find ourselves in the relationship version of the Red Waste.
I think I’m doing a great job at keeping my promise. We just keep getting better. Having more fun. Falling deeper in love.
My insomnia has gotten really bad recently. I feel like I’m always awake. I need to talk to my psychiatrist about adjusting my sleep meds.
I was thinking about poly stuff earlier. A couple of months ago, I thought I was hitting it off with someone, and then he pulled away. Not gonna lie, it stung a bit. But it got me thinking about what I want, and got me to message MP. Things with him are really great, and I’m so glad I reached out to him. I have a big time crush.
You know who else I’m crushing really hard on? My husband. We have always had an amazing relationship, but we have leveled up recently. I feel closer to him than ever, and we are meeting each other’s emotional needs on a deeper level. I feel loved and cherished by him. So secure. It’s wonderful. I love him so much.
I think this is going to be a good year.
We played You Pick The Band/I Pick The Song for over 4 hours tonight.
Pro tip: Get high; then sing & dance in the kitchen with the love of your life. You will literally never regret it. ♥️
I want to remember this:
Last night, we were recapping D’s date for the second time, since I was a hot mess when I got home on Tuesday night. So anyway – he was telling me about it, and he kept spontaneously grinning while he was talking, and it was so fucking adorable. I called him a smitten kitten and he blushed and told me to shut up. 😂
I love him so much. I am grateful for every day, and every experience. ♥️