faking it/not quite making it

This is what I wore to go see my doctor. It just felt like a hat day. Sometimes I like to be extra – just because.

I still feel not well. But I think at this point it’s mostly side effects from the antibiotics killing everything, both the good and the bad. I bought some probiotics to offset all of that. Hopefully.

More medical updates:

The tooth will be dealt with Thursday morning. I’m hoping for a root canal. An extraction will be a whole fucking ordeal.

The boobs will be swapped out on January 24th. My doc had a lot of great shit to say. She thinks that I’ll be much more comfortable after, and also happier with their appearance. Can’t wait. And it’s outpatient this time, because no fat grafting, though I will have drains again. Ugggghhhhh drains suck balls.

I have questions –

Is 5:30 too early to go to bed? Do I really have to make dinner? Can I just drink my dinner instead? Can I shoot tequila while taking narcotics? Can I make a living playing Candy Crush? Why do people go to law school?

lol lol lol

Wake up…time to shop!

Purchased from my bed, in the dark, at 5:45 am, thanks to an instagram ad:

There is a glitter version too, which I may get if I end up loving these. Mary Janes are my signature shoe, and my current black pair have seen better days. I love the chunky 90s style heel on these. And really they had me at “velvet with jewel detail” lol.

vintage love ❤️

I have two subscriptions I can’t break up with no matter what: book of the month club and Red Bird vintage box.

I received my latest vintage box just yesterday.

It was filled with several lovely things, including a brooch I adore, but my favorite thing this month (and maybe from any month so far) is this vintage locket:

And when I opened it…

I actually squealed! How cool is this??

I’ll obviously replace it with my own pics at some point, or…maybe I won’t, but wow I love this. I wish I knew the story behind how it ended up here with me.

11:39 pm on a Friday night

I want to go into great detail about what a good day I’ve had, but I’m too fucking tired.

The short version: the workday flew by and then I spent the evening shopping and dining with my bestie. We had a great time.

And now I am in bed, where I will chill until I finally pass out.

Oh and maybe I’ll get crazy and smoke some weed in the bathroom (so I don’t bother our house guest).

What I’m not going to do is sit here and write a big long rant about how middle aged and frumpy I have felt all day, which is actually silly considering how many genuine compliments I received today, mostly from complete strangers, on my look/sense of style. But you know…this fucking brain of mine is a god damned asshole, so. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I didn’t take a picture of my outfit today, but it was a black and white cat dress over teal leggings with black Mary Jane heels. I also wore my black and white houndstooth jacket with a big pink flower brooch. I finished it off with a pearl headband. Two random people at court had a discussion right in front of me about my look, and informed me I look like some TV character I had never heard of.

And like yeah I guess I kind of do. ^^